Am I the only one?

[BabyDddoll]

[sushishui]

Even if he never officially released you, you are released. BDSM relationships are a two-way agreement. Obviously the sub has lots of responsibilities, but the Dom has lots of responsibilities too. Your Master was obviously neglecting his. I know you made a promise, but it wasn't just on your side -- it's like a marriage, a two-way promise. And he's the one who broke it.

[BabyDddoll]

[A&Ω]

The path of moving forward is forgivness. It's an attribute of Love.

 

It may not make sense now to you but everything happens for a reason. You must realize that even though you held your relationship to Master a highest regard, he still is human and makes mistakes. Maybe he couldn't release you because it got to a point where he was too embarrassed to talk about it and decided to walk instead of talk. You must forgive him as you say you still Love him. Let that be your last gift to Master. Your last commitment held.

 

Once that is done your healing will begin, making way for a healthier you and a better relationship with Daddy.

 

My 2 cents.

[BabyDddoll]

[A&Ω]

You're quite welcome. Remember, we may be in a D/s dynamic, but do not forfeit your own power as a wonderful caring individual. Submission is earned, not the other way around.

[BabyDddoll]

Yes, Sir. It makes sense... To my left brain but the right brain is NOT cooperating! Daddy sees that I'm still a bit emotional. (Otherwise He would just tell me what to do maybe.). We have talked and journaled through the steps of grief...

 

I was very Alpha- for a long time. Master really had to work to help me reach my goals. Being a little is finally where I want to be! So having to make a big decision and follow through is more Alpha then lil. I get stuck, there's no fight left in me, no real anger to direct. I had completely submitted.

[A&Ω]

You're doing fine. Hug the little girl inside of you. Life is about experience and evolution of being the grandest next best expression of who we are.

 

There is that gentle balance between your desire and history. Retain the self respect you had while Alpha. Embrace the little girl as little. Respect yourself first and others will do the same.

[Breedaddy]

I suggest printing out all your feelings the best you can in your favourite crayons. Explain why you feel the way you do about everything and then give daddy the letter and ask him to burn it with the hopes that the meaning if not the words themselves will reach you previous master and give you your own sense of release. Regardless of how much you might want to burn it yourself remember good littles never play with fire. Edited May 10, 2016 by Breedaddy

[BabyDddoll]

Oh that sounds like great fun and hopefully I will feel like I've gotten all of the 'stuck' feelings out. I might have to do it again. There's a part of me that would really want Master to read it though... I understand the process of burning it and releasing it to the universe so the feelings and words get to where they need to go.

 

Wouldn't it be better if I could be angry? I just can't- only sad. I LOVE MY DADDY SO MUCH and it's so bad of me to think of my last Master... It would just be nice to say Goodbyes. I have no idea what happened--- see, stuck.

 

Thank You again Sir! I will work on this!!!!