Two halfs that are not fitting together

[Guest ScarletBlue]

Im confused and lost.

I dont know how to put into words what im going throught.l I feel like i cant be in a dd/lg and be Godly at the same time. Even though I know i would not be doing anything wrong. But at the same time i feel like im fighting with myself on this. Maybe i wont really know untill im in a dd/lg relationship.

 

I keep reading a lot of different stuff but most of it is not really helpful anymore. Im not sure how i feel about getting punished. But i also see how they can be helpful. I have a habit of self harm and i sometimes fight with depression. I can see how the punishment could help me break down the wall of lies i say to get the truth out. but i know that mt daddy dom would only do that if i break a rule.

 

I dont know if im making any sense right now. I dont know if i should keep going in learning more or should i just stop?

 

p.s if you see any spelling mistake please ignore them.

[PrettyPuppy]

well i kind of have felt the same way though im not religous. i had a split feeling about being the lead singer in a punk band and being a little. i felt like it wouldnt match or something like that. i deal with depression and self harm as well and my daddy helps me with it by making a rule that says "come to daddy with all your problems no matter what" and if i break it i get punished in a way that makes sense with what i didnt tell, for example if i harm myself i get less tv/tumblr/gaming time and if i just kept a problem to myslef i would get spankings. if you find a daddy i think you should talk to him about it and see what you too can figure out to do about it. but for now you could try and kind of punish yourself maybe? like giving yourself less time to watch tv or something. this might help on you keeping your problems to yourself. try maybe also and talk to a friend about why you are depressed. this may not be helpfull at all but i tried my best, i hope you find a solution.

[SweetMarie]

I just wanted to say that you and your DD can design whatever kind of relationship with one another that you want. It doesn't have to involve punishment. But if you do want that aspect, there is still a lot of choice around it. It is very important that the choices made aren't ultimately abusive/detrimental to you. Some people have physical punishments (spanking), other people sit in the corner or write lines, or have privileges taken away... There are all kinds and ways to shape the relationship to what works for you and your partner. Just remember that you do have a say. Even as a little, or submissive, you totally get a say.

[Guest ScarletBlue]

Thank you so much for all the advice. everything was very great. I do have an issue with telling someone that im depressioin. I try to talk to someone about it but i can never really get the words out. But i will work on that. I do know that whem or really if i find a daddy I will need to be 100% honest with him. I may just have to write him a long letter telling him everything.

 

I also check out that link with the ddlg and the christian and it was also helpful. I just feel I wont really know if this is for me till im in a dd/lg relationship.

 

thanks again for all the advice.