I hate seeing myself when I'm in little space.

[tiny kitty]

When I go into little space, i absolutely can't stand to see my reflection, or photos of myself, or any other reminder of what I look like. To feel like a small, cute, innocent little child, yet see a grown adult when I look in the mirror... it hurts me a lot, and as often as not rips me right out of little space. I can't feel little when my reflection is staring back at me telling me I'm not.

 

Does anyone else feel this way?

[Guest MyDaddyMyWorld]

You need to find a way to deal with the fact that you are an adult with these little tendencies. When you regress, you are still an adult. If its an actual, separate persona as in a double personality kind of thing, that might need looking into.

I do not pretend to know anything about such subjects as multiple personality disorders (for example), but it sounds like it's possibly taken on an unusual form.

Hey, thats just my opinion, I don't speak as an expert at anything , lol, and maybe others experience similar, just throwing my thoughts out there.

[Guest littlebitty]

I can in a way understand this. Not because of the same reasons but when I was first getting into the idea of little space If I saw myself I used to think 'how stupid am I?' I struggled and sometimes I still do allowing myself to fully let go in relationships too. For me it was beause I felt a lot of stigma attached to the idea of being little. I am physically small so thought this would help, I was wrong. I had to work so hard to be taken serious and heard in a big world (an had grown up with boys) so seeing myself as in little space made all those hurtful comments rush back.

 

I agree trying to find things that bring out the little side is a start, I don't know how long you have been involved in the dynamic or if you have someone to help you? But just take it one step at a time. I slowly built up to accepting this is who I was, and a lot of it was to do with having my confidence as a child ripped apart. I had to make peace with myself both big and little side, and I did this with constant positives/rewards for being brave each time I pushed myself. When you have someone helping you it helps a lot but essentially it is your journey at your time. Try and work out exactly what you don't like about it and why, and then turn those negatives into positives...if that makes any sense! It was like I was relearning to love me all again. It isn't easy but it is so worth it. I hope that made some sense.

[Guest starrflower]

I think you're experiencing somewhat of a dysphoric feeling when seeing yourself in a "big" body while you're in little space. 

I really agree and I also struggle with this.  Mainly when I am a middle rather than a little and I am not sure why.  When I look in the mirror I am disconnected from the person that I see.  This gets me down too and sometimes pretty depressed.  It's healing to really talk about this.  Maybe find someone you can open up to on a regular basis