I want to allow myself to be little. What is your experience?

[Guest lilbird]

From what I am reading, I am starting to understand "little space".  My age bounces back and forth.  I think from 4 years to 15,  I sometimes wrap myself up in a blanket and wish I had a stuffed animal.  I want someone to tuck me in.  Or hold me like a baby.  Sometimes I am nine and want to ride my bike all over town.  My fifteen year old pops up at times when my little feels scared.   I really want to understand and just accept myself.  Because I have not been able to do that.  

 

But I want to learn how to spoil myself and not feel bad if I get something that may not look right for my age range.  As if this should even matter.   Have any of you ever felt like this?  I have been judged before for my childlike behavior.    

 

I want to buy myself stuffed animals and soft blankets and maybe some new bed sheets.   Maybe find some posters to put up in my room.   I would like to do a little shopping soon and get something for myself.  Could any of you tell me some of your experiences with this?  I would love that. 

[Luca]

There's a taboo surrounding age regression because it's unfortunately inherently associated with pedophilia in the minds of others. Obviously this is ridiculous as the big difference, the ability to consent, completely negates that. But unfortunately some people do judge that kind of thing. The most important thing though is that that does not matter. Like, at all.

 

If something brings you happiness and you're not hurting anyone, go for it! Buy yourself posters, buy yourself stuffies and blankets and whatever makes you happy provided it doesn't upset your bank balance too much of course. 

 

At the end of the day your life is your choice, let what makes you happy make you happy, because you're worth making yourself happy. Everyone is. And yes, some people may find it difficult to deal with and honestly? That's okay. They're well within their right to, but you're well within your right to express yourself as you feel. Fo what you want, go for it!

[Littlest_Lushie]

What is your living situation like? Do you share a room? Are you given proper privacy? It'll be much easier to share insight if we know what your situation is.

 

For me personally, having a stuffed animal and buying a coloring book around my mother and sister were no big deal. But, I've had to hide to be a bit more private about other things I've purchased. 

 

Plus, there is no shame in starting small. You could buy yourself a blankie that is your favorite color or is a color you associate with little space- chances are it won't be questioned unless it has childish print or characters from Disney/movies/tv/etc. Or get a stuffed animal, and if questioned- say, I thought it was cute too pass up or, look how soft this is?! Bed sheets are simple- if you're worried about questions from others- pink floral sheets, pink sheets, or any other color sheets you associate with little space (I only say pink because its a popular color among littles.) As long as you stray away from children marketed movie character print- you should be fine. And posters should follow the same principle as well- if you do live with someone else.

 

IF, you live by yourself or in a space you can freely express yourself- then I have a whole other response for you I can post later

 

You deserve to feel comfortable and happy. And it may be difficult, but if you show others that you are happy that you bought that puppy stuffed animal or you adore your new soft blanket and it makes you warm/happy- then I'd hope that they see the happiness it brings you and not question it. I do know that not all people will be that kind though, and some people will want to get all up in your business. You must value and stand up for your own happiness. At the end of the day, you are the one tucking yourself in at night, you are the one carrying yourself day to day, you are the one who can insure your happiness. You are more important than someone elses question or odd expression- I hope you know that.

[lilvioletcub]

For me blankets and even stuffed animals are no big deal. I live in a cold area so blankets with nice prints (or penguines) are a must around the house, I also love penguines and collect penguine things so when I ask for a stuffie of one no one really questions why. My My little pony collection was a bit harder to openly explain why I love the blind bags but I could explain I loved the show for the artwork and voice acting both things my family knows I love is good voice acting and animation.

 

With being a little the best part is some things you don't have to hide if they are already an open part of you as a big person ex. I'm an artist so I love cartoons and animation for that reason, coloring is something a bit harder to explain but still me wanting a box of crayons I can wave off as "something to try new things with" Again blankets are not questioned, And well that's it. You can have your little space so long as its presented in a grown up way I've found

 

"Look at the jointing on this doll isn't it cool?"

"aw look its a (animal you love) plush toy its so cute!"

 

Things like that

[DaddysLolita]

I think you should buy yourself whatever your little heart desires! If it's your money, no one can tell you how to spend it.

 

Living situation definitely can cause issues. Trips to build a bear, purchasing myself a stuffie or cute hair things, coloring books, craft supplies, little movies, stickers etc are all no big deal for me...it's not hidden. However, pacis, sippy cups...these things are different.

 

Do whatever you are comfortable doing!

 

<3

[littlepreciouskitten]

I was into childish things long before I knew what a little was (and once I finally found out my entire life made a lot more sense) so it wasn't that hard for me to transition. I've never really had anyone judge me for anything. No one that knows me personally bats an eye when I buy coloring books or cartoony blankets or stuffed animals because they know I like those things and most people find it cute, if anything. Strangers will probably see you and assume you're buying it for a child.  People ringing you up are probably not even paying attention to what you're buying, but if anyone asks you questions just say you have a friend or relative who has a baby or toddler or whatever. It's definitely more "normal" to have some things than others. You can keep whatever you're uncomfortable having out in the open hidden somewhere. I have a box that I slide under my bed that's full of things that I don't want other people finding. It's definitely harder if you have to share your space with someone, but really just do it! Buy yourself whatever you want. People rarely judge things like stuffies, blankets, movies, stickers or onesies. Things like pacifiers and sippy cups might be a little different, but those can be hidden. Just get what makes you happy and don't care what other people think. I hide my little side to a lot of people, but I can still express parts of it out in the open without being judged and it makes it a lot easier. 

[Guest lilbird]

thank all of you so much!  Your responses have been so encouraging to read.  I am feeling excited to really give myself permission to live this way.

 

As I read more about it online I can see how taboo a lot of people think this is.  I was skeptical when I first read about it too.  Not really understanding the daddy's role.  And also the judgment of others if I completely let out my true self (which I need to stop caring about).  But it makes more sense to me now.  And now it's all I can think about  <3

  

I finally moved into my own apartment last April.  I have never lived alone before, so I can do whatever I want to my apartment!  My kids are 16, 18 and 25 and live with their dad, but we are together every single day.  It was heartbreaking for me to not be able to afford a bigger apartment.  

 

So, I do worry about how they will take the changes when they come over.  I worry about my mom and brother too.  A positive side is that they are all used to me being very childlike.   But I have hidden a lot of it.  

[Guest littlemissragamuffin]

Always be ture to yourself and whats inside. Just own up to yourself, and be this is how I am, this is what I like, this is for myself not for other's, other's opinions don't matter. It's how you feel about yourself that really matters. After all, your the one living your life.

 

I've had a lot of people be mean and nasty to me over the years because of how I am. I've always been very childish, it's just my personality. I've been a Little always and just never knew. (Actually it's more like my body is the only thing that grew up) I can't help the way I am and what I like, and I'm not going to change myself for others. When people try to give me a hard time about being myself, I say things like "So I'm weird" "I don't do it for you" "So what if I'm weird" "It's a good thing I'm not you" "I do this for me, not you" "Because I like it,that's why" or just total ignore than all together. (Of course I'm not saying to shove your sexlife down people's ears lol There's a difference between being pourd of yourself/personality and who you are. I say this because I've said things along this line before and people start saying things about why you'd want to be open about your sex life, but DD/LG isn't a sexlife, sexlife can just be part of it.)

 

So if you want to spoil yourself, go right a head and spoil yourself. Blankets, bed sheets, and stuffed animals isn't anything anyone is going to bat an eye lashe at. Even if you wanted to buy sippy cups, binkies, children's books, baby food, other toys, etc you'd be fine. People will think your buying things for a child. Trust me, I've been buying myself binkies and sippy cups scents I was 10. 95% of the time no one will bother asking you why or for who your buying things for. Not that it's any of their business in the first place but for those that do ask(cause very few would want to admit it) saying your child or a child you know, it's not like you have to prove it.

 

I don't know about children, seeing how I don't have any. But it sounds like a good lesson in accepting people and not being a bully. I'm not saying suck a binkie in front of them(you might not be comfortable or maybe you will be, it's about your comfort) but coloring and other "childish" behaviors that come naturaly. If you do want to hide away things(or just keep organizated) you could keep a Little Space Box or a few of them. One in the bathroom with your Little bath stuffs(if you have that stuffs) one in your room, under your bed or whatever with all your other stuffs, like suffed animals, binkies, etc. One for coloring/art supplies One for Little dish wear if you have or use them. Of course your female(we have an unfair advantage here) so no one's really going to really think too much of it if you have a stuffed animal or two just sitting around "deciding" your house or car. Super cute pictures and sayings/words (like the wall clingers things, etc) again female unfair advantage, no one's really going to put a lot of thought into those.

[littlemonstergirl]

I don't hide my stuffies or coloring books, all of my friend groups are pretty geeky and so a lot of my little stuff crosses over into geeky fandom so nobody thinks twice about the my little pony coloring books or stuffies, same for blankies, who doesn't love a good blankie!! I haven't purchased any Legos or footie pajamas or kiguramis yet but these also wouldn't stand out for who I am.

 

I think one thing that helps is a lot of "little" things are popular even among adults now, people are into feeling nostalgic about things like cartoons so you can always explain it away as its a part of your collection.

 

I keep my pacis hidden, and when I eventually get a sippy cup that will also go into a spot away from public eyes, those are a bit harder to explain

 

Don't feel bad for who you are! What you do in your own private time and with your own finances are your business no one else's!

[Guest Pouty Kitten]

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