A tearful vent from a lonely brain

[wackadoodle]

TW: period thoughts? Feeling overwhelmed and lonely probably. Spoke about a breakup as well

So tired today.

My period came and it feels like the world is crashing. 

My friend's girlfriend appears to be ignoring him and he's kind of having a breakdown and struggling to function so I'm looking out for him while checking to see if she posts or anything because she's been inactive on her socials and stopped replying to everyone. He's trying to reach out to her but it doesn't look good...there's not much I can really do other than make sure he doesn't self isolate either or do anything stupid and eats and sleeps and stuff. 

I might have triggered somebody and the emotional sensitivity from my period and the exhaustion from the insomnia just made me cry loads and now I'm super tired. 

I realize that I'm still bitter about the way a past partner treated me and I'm trying really hard to let go of the anger, but it's like a thick blanket of toxicity that won't leave me because I don't want to forgive them, because if their feelings about me were true then they wouldn't have said what they said or did what they did...and I feel betrayed and am mad at myself for giving them so many chances. It's probably the hormones talking...

Kind of want to self isolate too or curl into a ball and hide somewhere safe. I slept loads but am still tired. Hmmm if I could escape somewhere it would be near a fireplace where it's snowy. I'd curl in front of the fire and watch the flames until all my thoughts leave me and I can just appreciate a moment of solitude. If I cry then adleast the fire will dry them and comfort me. 

 It's starting to feel like I need to take care of all the people I care about and I suppose it's hurting because I want to be cared for too. People usually leave me once I'm done helping them feel happy and better. Do you think they'll leave me too? 

[Dangerously_Well]

It sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now, and it's completely understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Dealing with your period, a friend's potential breakup, and your own emotional baggage from a past relationship is a lot to handle, especially when you're also feeling extra sensitive and tired.

It's kind and caring of you to look out for your friend during this difficult time. It's great that you're there for him and making sure he takes care of himself. Hopefully, things will work out with his girlfriend, but even if they don't, it sounds like he has a good friend in you.

It's also okay to acknowledge your own feelings and struggles. It's natural to feel bitter and angry after being hurt, and it takes time to process those emotions and let go of the past. Don't beat yourself up for not being able to forgive your ex just yet. Healing takes time, and it's okay to feel those feelings.

And it's completely understandable that you want to self-isolate and find a safe space to curl up and hide. It's important to listen to your body and give yourself the rest and comfort you need. Your image of escaping to a fireplace in a snowy cabin sounds incredibly soothing. I hope you can find a way to create a similar sense of peace and comfort for yourself, even if it's just for a little while.

It's also natural to feel the need to be cared for, especially when you're putting so much energy into caring for others. It's okay to ask for support and to let your friends know that you need them too.

As for whether they'll leave you, true friends don't abandon each other when things get tough. It sounds like you're a wonderful friend, and I'm sure the people you care about appreciate you just as much.

If you ever need someone to talk to, or just need a listening ear, I'm here for you. Sending you gentle hugs and hoping you find some comfort and peace amidst the chaos.

[kryssi01]

Hugs. You sound like a really good friend being there for others just remember that you cant pour from an empty cup. Take time to care for yourself as well. We are here for you to vent to and lean on. I know its not the same as having someone physically there but I hope you know you have people here who care about you. 

[beanbean]

As said above it’s good that your helping your friends but you have to take care of yourself too this is very important 

[LittleBiscut]

Sounds like you have a huge load on your plate and a big heart. It’s okay to be sad and be empathetic to those around you. I think if your hurting from helping others to much it’s okay to take time for yourself and feel your feelings for a while. You can’t help yourself or anyone else if your having a breakdown❤️
Take some time for you! Get a blanket and  snuggle and your favourite book or a colouring or a cuppa and relax for a while be warm and comfortable. Make a choice for yourself! 🥹🥹❤️❤️ 

lots of love 💕 

[wackadoodle]

OMG thanks so much everyone😭you guys are actually so sweet, I'm literally crying what. LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!

I actually didn't see the replies till now cos uhrm I wasn't following my own topic oops🙈and I think I'm loads better though I was feeling upset again cos of something not that bad but like whaaaaat. I didn't expect replies, let alone these sweet ones😭❤️omg the people on this community are actually so sweet and you are all THE SWEETEST❤️❤️❤️love, love, LOVE you people❤️

You all better be taking care of yourselves too!😤❤️And I'll be here for you guys as well if you need me💕

But really, just thank you for taking the time to read my little vent and reply and try to cheer me up😭omg I'm crying again from the sweetness. I'll say it again, you all are the best!❤️🤗hugs for everyone!

[MasterPhotog]

I’m really sorry you're feeling this way, but I’m so proud of you for being there for your friend even while you're going through all of this. It's a lot to carry on your own. It sounds like you’re juggling a lot of emotions—your own struggles with your period, the unresolved feelings from the past, and trying to support someone you care about who is hurting too.

It’s okay to not have all the answers or be able to fix everything, especially when you're emotionally drained yourself. You don’t have to have it all figured out. The fact that you're so aware of your friend and trying to take care of them shows how much you care. But remember, you also need to take care of yourself. You deserve comfort and peace, too, just like anyone else.

The past you’re holding onto hurts—it’s understandable that they’re hard to let go of. Healing isn’t linear, and sometimes the anger lingers longer than we expect, especially when we feel betrayed. You’re not weak for not forgiving yet. It takes time, and it's okay to be angry. But don't be too hard on yourself, because you’re already doing the work to move forward.

As for the thought of self-isolating, I totally get it. But just know that you don’t have to carry everything alone. If it feels like too much right now, it's okay to reach out to someone or just give yourself permission to take a break and just breathe. 

About the fear of people leaving you—it’s such a tough feeling. But the truth is, the right people, the ones who truly care about you, won’t leave you when you need them most. You deserve support and care, too, and I hope you can allow yourself to ask for it when you need it. You're worthy of being cared for, just as much as anyone else. Please keep in mind, we're here when you need to talk about something.💖

Best wishes!