I'm not old!

[Baby Girl Miss Amanda]

I have been struggling with a broken foot that won't heal since before Thanksgiving.  I saw the specialist early last week and there's an old fracture from 12 years ago that reopened too, which isn't healing either. So he sent me back to my medical doctor for referrals and most of them are getting me in for appointments in the next two weeks (normally it takes 6 months to a year for referrals).

Then my car door locked shut and won't open this week and the mechanic says minimum another week for the part and there's extra labor fees... I feel overwhelmed with everything and I'm not sure where to begin most days.

Embracing my little is an escape for me. A way to find peace in my stressful life,  but it is difficult when life is so much. My motto has been from Frozen 2 - "Do the next right thing" but I am starting to doubt myself. I'm just so tired of the constant pain, fatigue, illness, and feelings of guilt for not doing enough. 

My birthday is next week and I feel like I'm trapped in this really old body with the brain of happy, brilliant 4 year old (or baby most days).  

I don't really need help solving problems, I have rl people for that, but no one in my real life knows about my littleness. I mean kinda they know... I teach 4 year old preschool and I'm very child-like always, in how I relate to the world, how I dress, and how I do my hair, but finding real life people to talk to is difficult.  I really just wanna get lost in littlespace for a few hours (or a couple of days) and find myself. But instead, I'm working on acceptance.  

Accept the things I cannot change

Courage to change the things I can

Wisdom to know the difference. 

 

[Dangerously_Well]

It sounds like you're dealing with a lot right now, and it's completely understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. A broken foot that won't heal, car troubles, and the constant pain and fatigue would be enough to make anyone feel discouraged. It's also tough when you don't have anyone in your "real life" to talk to about your littlespace.

It's admirable that you're finding ways to cope, even when things are tough. Embracing your little side and finding peace in littlespace is a beautiful way to nurture yourself. And your motto from Frozen 2, "Do the next right thing," is a wonderful guiding principle.

It's okay to feel trapped and frustrated, especially with your birthday coming up. It's natural to want to escape into littlespace and find a sense of peace and joy. And it's also okay to acknowledge that acceptance is a journey, and it takes time.

Your Serenity Prayer adaptation is beautiful:

Accept the things I cannot change

Courage to change the things I can

Wisdom to know the difference.

It's a powerful reminder that we can't control everything, but we can control how we respond to challenges.

Even though you have people in your real life for practical help, remember that you're not alone in this. This community is here to offer support and understanding, even if we can't physically be there to fix your car or heal your foot. We can offer a listening ear, encouragement, and a safe space to express your feelings.

If you ever want to talk more about your experiences, or just need a place to vent or share your joys and struggles, please don't hesitate to reach out. Sending you gentle hugs and hoping for brighter days ahead. ✨

[beanbean]

It does sound like you been going through so much hopefully it all works out for you I don’t think your old at all

[kryssi01]

Sending virtual hugs. I completely understand the feelings of just wanting to be Little when it feels like you are physically falling apart. I fell in 2018. That minor fall changed my life completely. It triggered a rare brain disorder that I was actually born with as well as broke my leg and foot so completely that its still not healed. I went from being an active person to being unable to even walk orstand for more than a few minutes. I hate that my body feels old when my mind is so young. 

You will get past this and you have a community here for you. 

[MasterPhotog]

I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. It's so frustrating when it feels like life just keeps throwing obstacles your way, especially when you're already dealing with so much pain and fatigue. It sounds like you've been doing everything you can to keep things moving forward, and that's something to be proud of, even when it doesn't feel like enough.

The fact that you're getting appointments so quickly is great, and I hope they bring the relief and answers you're looking for. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed and tired, especially when your body and mind are not in sync with what you want to do. Your motto from Frozen 2 is so powerful, and I hope it continues to remind you to take things one step at a time, even when it feels like there’s too much to handle.

I can understand why you're feeling worn out and questioning yourself, but remember, you’re doing your best with what you’ve been given, and that’s more than enough. 

I love that you have people to help you deal with your issues in real life. While being a preschool teacher gives you a definite advantage in dressing up, do your hair, and relating to the world in child-like ways, and your littleness being and escape, I can see your frustration for not finding people to share your littleness and being lost in little space in real life. 

While I love the idea of you working on accepting what can't be changed and hopefully seeking someone to share your thoughts and feelings with in real life. I'm sure continuing to share here on this forum will help you feel better.

As for your birthday, I hope you can find a way to give yourself some love, kindness and joy, even if it’s in the smallest of moments. You deserve to feel celebrated, no matter what your body may be going through.

Best of luck!