struggling

[lillizzie24]

Ive been struggling awhile with my depression. I don't feel like doing much. My house is a wreck because I cant motivate museum to do much.. I just want to sleep. I tried taking to a therapist and all she did was suggest stuff I can't do due to disabilities then my final straw was she was the last meeting with her all she did was crochet barely listened to me. Im on meds but both seems to help me get out of this slump. Doesn't help that I have no real friends, no family reallu just my daddy and me. My youngest son who lives with his dad doesn't want to even talk to me even told me I am only allowed to call once a week.. He has been told lots of lies by family.. My oldest lives an hr away and being winter i haven't been able to see him.. I don't like going out around people so til spring not much to do either..

[MasterPhotog]

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but I admire your courage in reaching out to talk about it. I can’t imagine how heavy everything must feel right now. It's understandable that you're feeling stuck, especially when you've been trying to find ways to cope and still feel alone in it. It’s tough when support systems don’t feel like they’re really supporting you, like with your therapist or even the distance from your kids. It sounds like you’ve been doing your best with what you’ve got, and that’s valid. 

Is there a small thing that you enjoy or used to enjoy that you could do, even for just a little bit? Sometimes, just a tiny step can help, even when everything feels overwhelming. Your feelings are valid, even if it’s hard for others to understand. You deserve to feel seen and heard, especially when you’re doing everything you can to manage despite so many hurdles. I’m really sorry you’re dealing with this. You don’t have to do it alone, though—feel free to talk about what's on your mind or stressing you here. In the meantime, please continue to stay strong and taking care of yourself as best as you can. 
 

[redruffle41]

@lillizzie24 deep breath! What does your Daddy say? Sounds like you need protecting and also some safety....you've got a lot going on!!!! Wish I could help except to say you reached out when u wrote this message and that part of you is very wise. To express yourself and speak. It's hard being big when little.

I had to do a lot of growing and I don't even have a daddy yet!!!! 😭 Sometimes I felt like I was screaming out loud what I needed and no one was listening. But in all honesty I was silent and suffering and expecting someone to rescue me. I wasn't listening either. I wasn't listening to others. I was ungovernable (lol, one of my fave ways to lovingly describe my brat side) It's a wise little to want to be rescued but I know daddies want growth and so I can also rescue and take care of myself (sometimes I need help, it's ok to need help!) I felt so bad about myself when I wasn't capable of more. I had to do very hard self acceptance.  So hard to learn these hard things and keep going but I'm proud of me and I know my daddy out there is proud of me too.

Maybe just ask your daddy for a hug and ask nicely if he could just be there for you? If that feels scary then maybe ask your little self why? Maybe write it out and ask daddy to read it? I don't want to mimic your disappointment with your therapist and give u suggestions that u don't feel capable of or ready for. Maybe I could tell me in a message in this thread what WOULD work? Bc I don't know you. I think people around u want to help you more than u might realize. I'm one of them. Wishing you all the heart and star luck in the universe!!!!! And remember you are loved!!! 

[Dangerously_Well]

It sounds like you're going through a really tough time, and I'm so sorry to hear that. Depression can be incredibly draining, and it's understandable that you're feeling unmotivated and exhausted. It's also frustrating when you don't have the support you need, and it sounds like you've had a difficult experience with your therapist.

It's important to remember that you're not alone and that there are people who care. It's wonderful that you have your Daddy, and even though your sons aren't able to offer the support you need right now, hopefully that can change in the future.

Here are a few things that might offer some comfort or support:

• Reach out to your Daddy: It sounds like he's a source of support for you, so don't hesitate to lean on him during this difficult time. Even just talking about how you're feeling can sometimes help.
• Find a new therapist: It's disappointing that your previous therapist wasn't a good fit. It's important to find someone who listens to you and offers support that aligns with your needs and abilities. Don't give up on therapy altogether - there are good therapists out there.
• Explore online support groups: There are many online communities where you can connect with people who understand what you're going through. Sometimes, just knowing you're not alone can make a big difference.
• Focus on self-care: Even though it's hard to motivate yourself when you're depressed, try to incorporate small acts of self-care into your day. Maybe a warm bath, a cozy blanket, or a comforting movie.
• Consider trying a different medication: If your current medication isn't helping, it might be worth talking to your doctor about exploring other options.

It's okay to feel overwhelmed and exhausted. Please be kind to yourself and remember that things can get better. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen without judgment. Sending you gentle hugs and hoping for brighter days ahead.

[lillizzie24]

4 hours ago, MasterPhotog said:

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but I admire your courage in reaching out to talk about it. I can’t imagine how heavy everything must feel right now. It's understandable that you're feeling stuck, especially when you've been trying to find ways to cope and still feel alone in it. It’s tough when support systems don’t feel like they’re really supporting you, like with your therapist or even the distance from your kids. It sounds like you’ve been doing your best with what you’ve got, and that’s valid. 

Is there a small thing that you enjoy or used to enjoy that you could do, even for just a little bit? Sometimes, just a tiny step can help, even when everything feels overwhelming. Your feelings are valid, even if it’s hard for others to understand. You deserve to feel seen and heard, especially when you’re doing everything you can to manage despite so many hurdles. I’m really sorry you’re dealing with this. You don’t have to do it alone, though—feel free to talk about what's on your mind or stressing you here. In the meantime, please continue to stay strong and taking care of yourself as best as you can. 
 

Ive been trying to do the things I enjoy. Unfortunately the things I want to do I can't. Its too cold to get out in nature and snow and ice keep me in. Ive been doing a lot of gaming and movies but that only helps at times

[lillizzie24]

1 hour ago, redruffle41 said:

@lillizzie24 deep breath! What does your Daddy say? Sounds like you need protecting and also some safety....you've got a lot going on!!!! Wish I could help except to say you reached out when u wrote this message and that part of you is very wise. To express yourself and speak. It's hard being big when little.

I had to do a lot of growing and I don't even have a daddy yet!!!! 😭 Sometimes I felt like I was screaming out loud what I needed and no one was listening. But in all honesty I was silent and suffering and expecting someone to rescue me. I wasn't listening either. I wasn't listening to others. I was ungovernable (lol, one of my fave ways to lovingly describe my brat side) It's a wise little to want to be rescued but I know daddies want growth and so I can also rescue and take care of myself (sometimes I need help, it's ok to need help!) I felt so bad about myself when I wasn't capable of more. I had to do very hard self acceptance.  So hard to learn these hard things and keep going but I'm proud of me and I know my daddy out there is proud of me too.

Maybe just ask your daddy for a hug and ask nicely if he could just be there for you? If that feels scary then maybe ask your little self why? Maybe write it out and ask daddy to read it? I don't want to mimic your disappointment with your therapist and give u suggestions that u don't feel capable of or ready for. Maybe I could tell me in a message in this thread what WOULD work? Bc I don't know you. I think people around u want to help you more than u might realize. I'm one of them. Wishing you all the heart and star luck in the universe!!!!! And remember you are loved!!! 

daddy helps a lot, but he has a lot going for too. He is very protective and supportive to me. The stuff my therapy told me I physically cant do due to health issues. She wanted me to walk more which where I live is impossible because I. Use a walker for mobility issues

[lillizzie24]

34 minutes ago, Dangerously_Well said:

It sounds like you're going through a really tough time, and I'm so sorry to hear that. Depression can be incredibly draining, and it's understandable that you're feeling unmotivated and exhausted. It's also frustrating when you don't have the support you need, and it sounds like you've had a difficult experience with your therapist.

It's important to remember that you're not alone and that there are people who care. It's wonderful that you have your Daddy, and even though your sons aren't able to offer the support you need right now, hopefully that can change in the future.

Here are a few things that might offer some comfort or support:

• Reach out to your Daddy: It sounds like he's a source of support for you, so don't hesitate to lean on him during this difficult time. Even just talking about how you're feeling can sometimes help.
• Find a new therapist: It's disappointing that your previous therapist wasn't a good fit. It's important to find someone who listens to you and offers support that aligns with your needs and abilities. Don't give up on therapy altogether - there are good therapists out there.
• Explore online support groups: There are many online communities where you can connect with people who understand what you're going through. Sometimes, just knowing you're not alone can make a big difference.
• Focus on self-care: Even though it's hard to motivate yourself when you're depressed, try to incorporate small acts of self-care into your day. Maybe a warm bath, a cozy blanket, or a comforting movie.
• Consider trying a different medication: If your current medication isn't helping, it might be worth talking to your doctor about exploring other options.

It's okay to feel overwhelmed and exhausted. Please be kind to yourself and remember that things can get better. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen without judgment. Sending you gentle hugs and hoping for brighter days ahead.

Daddy helps a lot but he has stuff going on too. Unfortunately that was the only therapist closd covered by my insurance. The rest are an hr away. Rural towns can be difficult 

[MasterPhotog]

13 minutes ago, lillizzie24 said:

Ive been trying to do the things I enjoy. Unfortunately the things I want to do I can't. Its too cold to get out in nature and snow and ice keep me in. Ive been doing a lot of gaming and movies but that only helps at times

I completely understand what you're saying. The most important thing is to stay strong and set small, achievable goals. Start by walking around the house for just 1-2 minutes without any pressure, and only increase the duration when you feel comfortable. Celebrate and be proud of every success, no matter how small.

Since you're staying indoors until the weather warms up, consider asking your doctor or pharmacist if they recommend taking vitamin D. We living in colder climates often take vitamin D regularly. 

Best wishes!

[beanbean]

10 hours ago, lillizzie24 said:

Ive been struggling awhile with my depression. I don't feel like doing much. My house is a wreck because I cant motivate museum to do much.. I just want to sleep. I tried taking to a therapist and all she did was suggest stuff I can't do due to disabilities then my final straw was she was the last meeting with her all she did was crochet barely listened to me. Im on meds but both seems to help me get out of this slump. Doesn't help that I have no real friends, no family reallu just my daddy and me. My youngest son who lives with his dad doesn't want to even talk to me even told me I am only allowed to call once a week.. He has been told lots of lies by family.. My oldest lives an hr away and being winter i haven't been able to see him.. I don't like going out around people so til spring not much to do either..

I am sorry you’re struggling so bad hopefully you find some peace and maybe another therapist.I know it probably doesn’t help that much but I missed you here. Tho I understand why you haven’t been here