Not doing great

[kryssi01]

I am crying my therapist made me reset my tracker. Because I scratched w/ intent to self-harm. She said that I had to be honest with myself and take accountability for it. I was days away from 7mo. Now I am back to day 5. I'm angry at myself and feel like I failure. Like I will never get better no matter how much work I do. Sometimes everything gets too much the feelings are to much and I'd rather feel physical pain than listen to whats in my head. I hate it. Why am I not enough. Why can't anyone see and love me? 

[MasterPhotog]

44 minutes ago, kryssi01 said:

I am crying my therapist made me reset my tracker. Because I scratched w/ intent to self-harm. She said that I had to be honest with myself and take accountability for it. I was days away from 7mo. Now I am back to day 5. I'm angry at myself and feel like I failure. Like I will never get better no matter how much work I do. Sometimes everything gets too much the feelings are to much and I'd rather feel physical pain than listen to whats in my head. I hate it. Why am I not enough. Why can't anyone see and love me? 

@kryssi01
Although it may feel like you will never get better, remember that you absolutely will—not only will you improve, but you’ll also become stronger and prouder of yourself sooner than you think. This is exactly why your therapist asked you to reset your tracker—they believe in your strength and know you can do it.
Even on days when you doubt yourself, deep down, you know you are enough and lovable just as you are. All it takes is a little extra effort to love and care for yourself, and you’ll make both yourself and your therapist proud.
The new year is just around the corner. Let it be a chance to embrace a stronger, prouder version of yourself and start fresh. Best wishes!

[beanbean]

1 hour ago, kryssi01 said:

I am crying my therapist made me reset my tracker. Because I scratched w/ intent to self-harm. She said that I had to be honest with myself and take accountability for it. I was days away from 7mo. Now I am back to day 5. I'm angry at myself and feel like I failure. Like I will never get better no matter how much work I do. Sometimes everything gets too much the feelings are to much and I'd rather feel physical pain than listen to whats in my head. I hate it. Why am I not enough. Why can't anyone see and love me? 

Your not a failure at all remember we all stumble from time to to time its about how we get up what we do after we stumble it’s going to be baby steps remember