Tragedy

[rari]

And when tragedy struck

A personal pest it became

One I couldn’t get rid of

At night I cried my eyes out 

Bloodshot they would appear

In front of the mirror

Which only whispered facts

I couldn’t bear to look at it

It was too honest without even trying

Sometimes I would forget 

The misery of this world

Stuck in a world of fantasy

Escaping the clutches of reality

And when I return

A strike to my aching heart I would receive

 

During the day 

When my smile is blinding but

My eyes hold back tears

They narrate the words which I can’t express

And when they ask if I’m okay 

“I’m okay “ my straight forward reply.

Which holds a thousand meanings

I would try my best to seem unfazed

But deep inside my darkened heart

I can feel the pain ploughing through me 

 

The days are gettting darker

And the nights stormier

That fake smile 

Plastered on my tear stricken face

Keeps me awake as the clock ticks by

And when twelve strikes 

The walls begin to crack 

My hands choose to quiver 

And my throat feels clogged

All I see is the dark calling out to me

Lulling me in

 

When I wake

I’m in a puddle of sweat

The sun begins to rise

It smiles down on me

And plants hope in me

The birds’ sweet chirps enlightens my soul 

It keeps me going and fuels my fire

I’ve made it through another night.

The pain goes unnoticed 

I’m okay.

Edited August 17, 2024 by rari