new here and glad i found this club

[PhoebeHellfire]

I am new here and also new to the entire sight as a whole. I'm visually impaired. Im a middle and little. I dont slip in to little space often because I dont allow nmyself to do so. I feel too anxious about my own safety personally when I am in little space and I currently dont have a mommy. As far as middle space for me goes, well I try to explain it like this, I don't have middle space due to it being so much a part of my personality and instead I try to sort of explain to those close friends and partners that I have gotten really good at balancing being myself and adulting when I have to. My body is 34, my mind feels literally stuck at sixteen, sometimes seventeen but rarely. I love gaming metal and rock music and I really am glad I found this group because I'm a 90's baby and I wish I had other friends who were little or middle that could relate with me or I relate with them. When I feel particularly down wich is a lot of the time due to trauma or just mental stuff, I end up I guess slipping in to more of a middle space but I dont call it that because I feel like that all the time. I mostly like to binge shows like the original Charmed, Supernatural, Small Ville, and I honestly can not remember the exact spelling on that last show. Other shows I love are Are You Afraid of the Dark, House MD and Degrassi the Next Generation, I have seen Next Class and I like it but I felt it was way too short.

A lot of these shows are also coping tools that have helped over time. Sometimes honestly I wish there was some kin of button that had placed me in the proper body and had givewn me the expeariences I wanted in high school. To explain that, I'm transgender, I have beenn transitioning for ten years. Trying to get top and bottom done. I as far as sexual stuff goes, I'm lesbian. I go by  Phoebe, as I took that as my witch name. Also I saw a  a lot of  my own traits in the witches Phoebe and Paige from Charmed. So I ended up changing my witch name to Phoebe and since my actual nname is already Paige it felt right honestly. I have read through the sight and really like what I have seen so far. It feels like home here. I dont feel like other people outside the witch, or kink, ddlg communities could really relate to me. Other random stuff about me, I am a night pperson. I am a mix of goth emo and punk and write poetry and do some writing sometimes. I cant think of anything else important other than I love animals and have a cat. I have joined this and the witche group so far and they feel like they fit. Ps before I forget, there was another community II am a part of wich is called otherkin. Im just happy I found at least one of those places that are active. The DDLG forum seems way more active than the other places I am a part of and right now in my life I really need that. Even if I dont make any friends just knowing Im not alone, its nice to know and for once I dont feel completely alone.