Bunny’s place to brain dump <3

[ErickWcurls]

On 4/7/2024 at 4:20 AM, xolilbunnyprincessxo said:

Yup deleted the fetlife account. Blushes 😳 

I found FetLife to be absolutely repellent lol deleted after a couple days.  I'm very heartened to see you are doing better.  I wish I had your outlook.  It's almost been two years and I still don't feel ok.  It's funny , I am very much stronger physically because I've gone to yoga twice a week since she heartlessly dumped me.  But my mind feels shattered.  Keep going 💪🏽

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Work was good today  I got good news from my realtor he said we can start looking for houses and my price point was approved by the mortgage man ❤️ So hopefully soon I’ll be finding and buying a home. Yay me 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

2 hours ago, ErickWcurls said:

I found FetLife to be absolutely repellent lol deleted after a couple days.  I'm very heartened to see you are doing better.  I wish I had your outlook.  It's almost been two years and I still don't feel ok.  It's funny , I am very much stronger physically because I've gone to yoga twice a week since she heartlessly dumped me.  But my mind feels shattered.  Keep going 💪🏽

Yeah it was a misadventure for sure lol. Yoga is hard lol it looks easy but it’s hard. Lol I’m not very flexible. But exercise is great for the body and mind ❤️ I just try to keep busy it’s all I can do eventually I’ll feel better. 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Come home, eat, try to be positive…… changes into jammies and crawls into bed with all the stuffies🥹🥹🥹

[beanbean]

Hopefully stuffy hugs can help

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

3 hours ago, beanbean said:

Hopefully stuffy hugs can help

They always help a little bit 💖

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

OOf hoping it’s nice out after work today so we can go to the park. It was so yucky and grey out yesterday we just came home. I can’t have that much time with nothing to do. I’m excited to start looking at houses  I’ve always wanted a house. I used to have this dream of getting married and having a house and a dog and raising babies with a big garden and a white fence. That doesn’t exist but I’m going to buy a very expensive cat though once I have a place of my own ❤️ 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

I want….cuddles……🙃

I is officially on E for EMPTY

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

I need to get back in shape lol I is a bit fluffy atm. It will eventually happen but man do I miss lifting and running on the ellipticals at the gym. 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

OOf it it is morning  I is awake. No idea what I’m going to do today. I’m thinking either the zoo or the big park. I wish I didn’t still have a headache though. I had one last night before I went to sleep and it’s still here. It seems like I’m going to look at houses tomorrow. I’m hoping that’s fun. I’m picky though lol so it might be disappointing. I’ve been slowly losing weight which is nice almost back in the 160’s. I want to lose like 20lbs but I’ve been saying that for almost 3 years I’ll take what I can get at this point. I still don’t understand WTF happened the more I think about it the more nothing makes sense but oh well.  Maybe I should just listen to my mom and hold out for a Dr. lol not that Dr. is ever going to want to date me lmao all the ones I know are marrried. I was in love with the fact that I found someone that actually followed through and did all these things they came up with and said they where going to do  that I believed in and trusted because their actions actually matched their mouth and I think that was the least real part of them. I don’t think I have the interest anymore in dating someone just because they’re nice and make me happy, I know that sounds awful but I’m always the one that gets epically let down. I don’t think I miss represent myself either I used tell my ex I don’t know how you put up with me but apparently he didn’t he just silently hated me. Like I know I’m difficult and stubborn and I feel like asshole after I’ve acted like one but….I’m not mean. IDK I’m at a weird point where it’s like I want someone because I don’t like being alone but also don’t realistically I can’t even date so it doesn’t matter. My ex and I where together for months before my munchkin moved in with me I can’t just have new people around my kid like that and I live down here alone there is no grandma, aunt, or best friend to babysit if i want to go to an evening work function let alone on a date.  So yeah I’m going to buy a house get a cat and let that be that. This is my descent into my crazy cat era lmao.   ****pouts****

Annnd it just comes out of nowhere lmao Jesus I’m done with that for the day.  

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Feelings are hard I wish I didn’t have them sometimes 🙃 I just want to be a playful happy wandering bunny. Laundry time lol I washed my body now it’s time to wash my clothes ☺️

Edited April 13, 2024 by xolilbunnyprincessxo
Autocorrect is stupid lmao

[beanbean]

Lol laundry day is fun

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Hahaha that reminds me I need to put the clothes in the dryer 😅😅

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

well I at least tried today, the zoo was fun but I’m just sad and angry inside today. Groceries than home 🥹

[beanbean]

Sorry it's been a rough day hopefully it gets better 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

I hate that I’m like this 😑🫠😭 I thought I was doing Soo good and 😫😫 

[beanbean]

Your just normal 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

13 hours ago, beanbean said:

Your just normal 

Oh boy 😅😅😅 I might have to wonder about your character judgement. I’m far from normal.

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Sunday funday 

At the park the munchkin is flying a kite while I get steps in than off to view a house at 2 and talk with the realtor about what kind of places Im willing to consider. 

[beanbean]

39 minutes ago, xolilbunnyprincessxo said:

Oh boy 😅😅😅 I might have to wonder about your character judgement. I’m far from normal.

Lol I get A for my judgements thank you very much😂

39 minutes ago, xolilbunnyprincessxo said:

Oh boy 😅😅😅 I might have to wonder about your character judgement. I’m far from normal.

 

[beanbean]

Have fun at your funday 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Rawr 🦖 that is all. As Trisha once said high AF” I am a chicken nugget”. 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

It is morning 🎀 and Monday 💖 work is life 😅💕 I need to figure out a study plan today and stick to it. I love my job and I’m so thankful for the fact that I do something I love in such a unique work environment with an amazing team. It’s my happy place lol even though sometimes it’s sooo hectic and stressful I wouldn’t change it for anything. 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

I know at this point this 99.9% my mental disorders running rampant because emotions lol but it’s still uncomfortable even though I know what it is I can’t help certain thoughts and feelings. It’s hard I want to move on and get back to being happy active me but I keep getting stuck in these cycles of low emotions and anger that there really is no answer to.  It will eventually pass I just keep trying my best and some days are better than others but I’ll eventually get there. 

[xolilbunnyprincessxo]

Some times the answer is to be slammed into a wall and take advantage of 😅 there’s something about consensual violence that just lets me let go of things. Finding partners who understand that and that you can trust to not to actually hurt you …. Too much lol is hard. I very much wouldn’t mind a session right now but hugging stuffies alone is what I got. 🙃