Sad topic WARNING Scared of losing Daddy

[SweetQuietSorrow]

Hi!

I think I've already asked everyone and read every single article about fear of losing a partner. Although I don't think it fully reflects my situation, as a little. I am in a relationship with my Daddy since over a year. I really do love him, and I cannot imagine my life without him. And I am the clingy type, so it even more increases our bond. He is absolutely perfect to me, and besides having little time with him, I just enjoy him as him-him, and not Daddy-him (I love Daddy-him too!). The thing is, we have this age gap, somehow over 20 years old. And it doesn't bother me what others think about it, even though my family is very against it. What really disturb me though is that I am scared that he will pass away before me. Like I am panicky scared of it. I do imagine my life with him, the marriage, the kids. But really to lose him? Like lose everything...is just unimaginable. I don't know what to do, because the break-up is not something I would even consider. I was thinking that well "one's partner can have accident anytime, and leave their spouse", but I reckon that it's different in this case. 

If some of you have had similar situation or is currently in a one, then please share your advice or your kind words  

[Little kaiya]

I'm 21 years older than my boyfriend/Daddy. We're in the process of preparing for our commitment ceremony to be performed by my Wife.

Is it likely that I'll pass away before Him, yep, very likely. That said, when we've discussed it He's happy with His choice and we're living in the now versus stressing about a future we can't predict or control.