A Beautiful Sad Story part 1

[Guest Lil.vamp.90]

i can't thank you all enough for the love and support you showed my on my "confused and lost" post, it helped me to know that i wasn't the problem, it didn't help however with all the unanswered questions, and you're all right, there may never be answers and that is something i am struggling with. i thought maybe i could just write out mine and the daddy i once knew, our story, and hope that it'll help me over come this broken heart of mine.  (i'll be leaving out names, sticking with just daddy and little one, as well as dates, no matter what, i want to continue respecting the relationship i had with him, because it was very real, very authentic and very very special.) 

 it started with a hello, a smile and a wiggle. there was an instant attraction, a natural reaction, a real connection i had never felt with anyone else, ever. there was no questioning how our souls had known each other in  a past life, that is how natural it felt to speak and be around each other.  no matter how many times i questioned daddy, he would always reassure me, he would always take my face in his hands, stare into my eyes, smile and find the logic and truth to what i questioned. it didn't matter how many times i questioned him, he would always hold me and say he feels the same way. 

i'll never forget our first date, when he pulled up and parked beside me, i was so excited, my little came out and wiggled right into his arms. we kissed, without thought, without feeling scared, without feeling nervous, everything felt right and secure. there was no questioning our attraction and our want to be together. our first date was filled with laughter and joy, with kisses and looks, safety and security, he made me feel like i was the princess of his dreams. we had a beautiful dinner, i'll never forget how you held my hand as we walked through the crowded restaurant, we hadn't even talked about ourselves much, yet he knew my anxieties and fears, and with the touch of his hand on my lower back, the anxiety and fear that was consuming me, disappeared. 

we drove to the park of lights, and daddy took my hand and we had the most memorable time. when he first called me little one, i felt a sense of peace come over me, i remember looking at him, he smiled and i knew that this was going to be one of those unexplained romance fairytales. the kind you only read in books. i really thought he stepped out of one of my romance books, the ones i keep hidden because those are the ones that i want to be real. i had him standing right in from of me, daddy, with his smile, his eyes and the strength of his arms, wrapped around me, keeping me safe, showing me just what it meant to be cherished by another human being. 

when we returned to the car, he kissed me again, he said he wanted to see me the following day, and i remember asking him if he was absolutely sure about that, he laughed and said "little one, i'm very sure, i want to see you again, spend more time with you" 

the following way, i went to him, we laughed, we joked around, we cuddled on his couch, watching disney movies, drinking juice and coffee... he asked me if i knew about the ddlg world, and i felt heat come over my skin, of course i knew about it, we talked about it, and talked about it, we'd get off the subject but came back to it, we exhausted the subject. through it all, it felt normal, natural, we were in his home and it felt like i'd been there so many times before, the hours passed, and he pulled me into his arms, we cuddled on the couch as disney's hurcules played on disney+, it was the scene where meg is singing "i won't say i'm in love" ...daddy took my face, he tilted it until i was looking up at him, he smiled, he kissed me and asked if i wanted to be his girlfriend. 

i remember cuddling closer to him, "daddy are you sure? your girlfriend, thats a big deal, especially since we don't really know each other, its only our second date" 

"little one, i've never been more sure, i knew you were the one when i saw that little wiggle in the parking lot last night, i couldn't ask for better, you're it" 

daddy had turned me into a puddle of love and joy, you know those baskets filled with hearts? thats what it felt like. 

we spent so many nights and days talking, holding each other, laughing, and just enjoying each other. he met my parents, even after i asked if he was positively sure he was up to meeting them "yes little one, it means a lot to you, i respect you, and when it comes time, i'm going to have a chat with your father." i laughed and said a chat about what? he shook his head, kissed me and said that i was not to worry about what. that he knew what he was doing. he met my family, and that night we went back to his house, he held me, and asked me about forever. being the little that i am, i asked him "forever what daddy?" he said "forever, you, me, us forever" 

i questioned "are you sure you want forever with me? thats a long time you know, what if i get on your nerves?" we laughed and he kissed me and said he was so sure, that he couldn't see forever without me.... the following morning, he was sitting on the stairs, watching me struggle to put my shoes on, and i looked at him, and asked him "for real forever? like forever and ever?" he laughed and opened his arms to me, which i immediately went into them, cuddling him, we kissed until it felt like i couldn't breath anymore, i felt his mouth smile against mine before he pulled back enough to whisper against my lips  "yes, little one, forever and ever" 

 

[beanbean]

sounds like you had lots of great times with him and many beautiful times and am very glad you had some great times , and that you reallize it .

[MissNMTX]

I hope writing this has helped you process.