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Andriel_Isilien Posted August 29, 2022 Report Posted August 29, 2022 Something I wrote up over a month ago that I didn't have the courage to share. I discovered that I am a soft, tender little that is more drawn to praises and a nurturing dom. All the sweet fluffy affection gives me the fuzzies 🥰 This I put together like a journal entry to express the needs that I have for my little side. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What does it mean that I love praises in Ddlg? It's simple, I am a people pleaser. I'm sensitive to the feelings of others. I’m a great listener for many but I am deaf to myself. I get so hung up on what others WANT that I forget what I NEED. It’s my toxic trait. The little in me needs reassurance that she’s doing ok because I am my worse critic. I like feeling fuzzy from my head to my toes when told, “good girl.” I get so nervous trying to think what you’re thinking. I need guidance, praise, and affection. So, tell me with the gentle words, “It’s ok, little one.” You may ask why I doubt myself so much. It’s because I think I’m average. I am a patient with others, but I know that I can always do better myself. To the supervisors that sing my praises for my work ethics I shrug with a smile and say, “I just show up.” I don’t ask for a raise. I don’t ask for time off. If I am even 5 minutes late, I text ahead to apologize. I get depressed but I force myself to be reliable for others before my own needs. Eventually I do burn out and I cave in on myself. The mental fatigue catches up and physically I struggle to function. It’s a cycle I should be able to catch and fix by now. I feel such guilt that I’m weak like this and can’t be there for someone. I need you to ask my little side, “Can you be a good girl for me and follow these rules of self-care?” I strive to be sweet and polite. I’m too scared to step out of line because seeing you disappointed hurts more than any punishment could inflict upon me. I don’t understand how other littles or subs can be bratty with gleeful smirks on their faces. As a student I would cringe or flinch while witnessing a peer act out on the teacher. A simple “Ah-ah-ah, listen to Daddy,” is enough to set me straight. The little in me doesn’t throw a tantrum. She goes silent. She goes to hide. She cries alone. It’s all she knows on how to cope with these bad feelings. She struggles to find the words on what she needs. It’s because she is used to believing that what she wants should be what you want. Help her make the best decisions. Draw it out saying, “Use your words, babygirl. I won’t be mad.” Maybe it’s the thought of forcefully taking charge that scares me so much. Maybe it’s the fear of rejection that holds me so accountable. Maybe it’s because I will do anything to get you to stay when others have left me before. I have tried to be more enticing, rebellious, or not so basic but I just can’t play that part. So, I keep my eyes downcast. I nod to comply and obey. Anything to make you happy. Anything to make you smile while looking at me and say, “That’s my girl.” Give me praise and I blush. Disarm my self-deprecation to make my head spin. Kiss my forehead softly then I’ll bite my lip. Lift my chin to look up at you and my heart will thump. Whisper in my ear, “Let Daddy take care of you.” That’s when I’m yours… all yours, Daddy. 4
DaddysMonkey Posted August 30, 2022 Report Posted August 30, 2022 @andrielisilien , thank you for sharing this with everyone. It made me cry , in the most beautiful way. You’re so strong and a beam of light in the community ❤️ You deserve so much ! 1 1
Guest Posted August 31, 2022 Report Posted August 31, 2022 Oh gosh @andrielisilien thank you for showing something so personal and deep with us all. Just so inspiring and hope it inspires others to share their own inner thoughts.
Sloth Fairy Posted September 2, 2022 Report Posted September 2, 2022 Wow, this really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing it. 1
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