Overwhelmed

[MylovesPrincess]

I don't have anywhere I can really vent this.

It's big, big stuff, and the bigger it gets, yes, it just keeps growing, the littler I go.

I am older in years, but my little age is usually around 4. Right now... I'm hanging out at probably 18 months.

I'm a little, but in my day to day life, I'm a mom. My son has brain cancer.

He was diagnosed in December.

I have adult separation anxiety disorder. I had to be a big girl and stay with him at the hospital for a week.

Luckily I had my dolly with me.

Then in January, he was supposed to go in for surgery. But it was cancelled because, well lots of reasons, but it would have made things worse.

So instead, we, my boy and me, moved an hour away from home to the Ronald McDonald House.

I did my best to be a big girl. But ohhh regression.

I shopped... A lot. I bought all sorts of coloring books.Markers. colored pencils. Dollies. Crocs I decorated.

Finally last week we came home.

I'd gotten pretty attached to one of the new dollies, and then... I. LOST. HER.

Yesterday, I tore my house apart looking for her. I cleaned my room, going through EVERY nook I came across.

I was devastated. Whens my Daddy came home, he was worried. Is all this because of your dolly??

Well yes, and all the stress.

He tooks me out for dessert. And when we got home, I FINALLY FOUND HER.

I cuddled with her all night. I missed her.

There's so much going on. My life is a big messy pot. My Daddy is by my side, but I am just constantly in little space.

If anyone reads all dis. Thank you.

[BrassyBabyGirl]

I am glad you have a Daddy to help you through. It is a lot. If regression is a coping mech for you right now, so be it. Sending loving energy your way.

[MylovesPrincess]

Thank you. Yes, a serious coping mechanism. ❤️

[Punographer]

That really sounds like a lot. I'm sorry things are so hard. I'm glad you found Dolly! Maybe put a tracker in her for next time. Hehehe. You know just in case!

 

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[MylovesPrincess]

You can put a tracker in there????

Oh my goodness. Hmmm....

Thinking....

And thank you.