Little feeling lost

[Mischa]

My Daddy and I have been together for a few months. We live far apart but we video chat and talk on the phone and message daily. Yesterday everything was perfectly fine. We were talking about when he comes to visit in a few weeks. We video chatted. He said he would call me after he got groceries and even messaged when he got back. All of a sudden the responses stopped. Sometimes he goes to bed and doesn’t say a word to me and I have told him it triggers my abandonment issues but I thought maybe he accidentally fell asleep. The messaging app we use doesn’t always work great so I emailed him and it says that the email can’t be found or delivered. I emailed him from my old address with no problem.

I don’t understand why someone would grow something for months and just leave. He even said how cruel it is to do that to someone just the other day!

I feel so hurt and lost and confused. I am really scared I’m how to move forward because he is the one who helped me realize and accept my little side. I told him yesterday how much that meant to me. I have always had this side of me even as a child. I just never knew what it was or what it meant. I felt like I was odd. I have been a submissive for several years but as I started to learn more I was afraid to accept this side of me. I don’t want to feel resentful and hate or be scared to embrace my little side because of this heartbreaking experience. I feel like I fully stepped into who I have always been and it was so freeing and e said he could see how much happier I was. I don’t know what to do and I just need some help. I know he has left because this is not normal ana I can tell my email is blocked. I’m used to waking up with bad dreams and being tucked back in and loved. I don’t want to lose myself again. I’m so depressed I don’t even want to color and that is what always helps me. I’m sorry for the long rant and I’m sorry if this isn’t the place. I just need some support and opinions from both sides. I just feel broken.

[Guest LittleElizabethBun]

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[Guest Little_Kira]

Hello my friend you seem like such a sweet girl im so sorry that this has happened to you. He talked to you about people doing this to others and knew about your abandonment issues then does that to you. He knew what he was doing when he decided to just do this with no warning. I think that he will be missing out on a really beautiful and lovely little. I think you should make some friends to help you through this. Friends that can give you advice to help you better learn about the little side of you that you've finally accepted. When your then you can find another daddy that's just for you it wont be easy but just focus on yourself and making good friends ok. Don't worry though you already have one right here. I'd be happy to be your friend and help you.

[Mischa]

Hello my friend you seem like such a sweet girl im so sorry that this has happened to you. He talked to you about people doing this to others and knew about your abandonment issues then does that to you. He knew what he was doing when he decided to just do this with no warning. I think that he will be missing out on a really beautiful and lovely little. I think you should make some friends to help you through this. Friends that can give you advice to help you better learn about the little side of you that you've finally accepted. When your then you can find another daddy that's just for you it wont be easy but just focus on yourself and making good friends ok. Don't worry though you already have one right here. I'd be happy to be your friend and help you.

Thank you so much! I am happy to be making some friends. He even pushed me to get on here and make friends. It just doesn’t make any sense. He was always so loving so I am left feeling so confused and I analyze everything!

Thank you for being here for me! I do hope I find my forever Daddy some day.

[sammightstay]

There's no quick solution to how you're feeling. It sucks. What he did was horrible. Obviously, he can't help if his feelings changed, but to just cut you out like that is awful and so insensitive.

The best advice I can give you is to not run away from your feelings or try and shut them out. Embrace everything you're feeling, because it's natural. Be with those feelings and I promise in time you'll move on. It will always hurt when you think of him and that's okay, but there's life after him and one day you'll find someone who will make you forget all about him. For now, focus on you. Try something new. Bring some change into your life. After my most recent break up, I found making new friends to be a really helpful way to move on. Bring new people into my life and make new connections. Friendships are usually much more stable relationships too.

Remember you're not alone. What happened to you, will happen to everyone and we all hurt when it does. Just keep being yourself and you'll find that special person for you. He wasn't it and now you need to grieve that loss.

[Guest LittleElizabethBun]

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