This is my goodbye.

[themightyloner]

 

Almost 13 months.

 

13 months of heartbreak, frustration and some of the worst depression/anxiety I've ever experienced.

 

I looked everywhere. Reddit, DDLGForum, DDLGFriends, Fetlife, Tinder, Meetme, POF, Bumble, Okcupid, etc. I wrote and re-wrote my posts at least 20 different times. Tried different times of the day.

 

But nothing.

 

I know why. There's a lot of different factors (such as being a black little and coming across posts/profiles that specifically say "no dark skinned people") but the main one? I am asexual which means I am a non-sexual little. And daddies HATE that about me. If I'm not ignored, I'll be called names, insulted, told to kill myself... yes, from the very same daddies that claim to want to be someone's "protector."

 

This community and the people in it seriously have some deep-seated issues. I suppose if you are a little or daddy that already has someone, you can view things through rose-colored glasses. But for all the rest of us... DDLG has seriously gone to shit.

 

Sorry, Daddy. I tried my hardest to find you but I guess you simply don't exist.

 

Goodbye, everyone. ♡

[RebelKing]

You should probably keep trying, also, not finding a partner in 13 months is not all that long

[Guest pinkbarbie]

I'm really sorry that you went through so much pain only for wanting a Daddy. You didn't deserve to be treated like that at all. 

Edited September 20, 2021 by pinkbarbie

[Guest Teasing Tink]

I'm sure there's not any words I can offer that will heal the damage done. I'm just here to say I'm sorry you were treated so horribly just for being asexual. And I agree with you that the community unfortunately attracts a fair amount of shady characters, so I won't sugar-coat it.

 

My heart goes out to you. Perhaps take some time to focus your energy on your own beautiful heart, because it sounds like you really need it. <3

[Vampiress]

I am so deeply sorry that you have been treated so poorly over your skin color and for being asexual. The way people behave and think it's okay I will never ever understand. You deserve so much better than that. It's a shame the community had to be such a let down and had done such damage. I hope that you are able to find happiness and get past everything that happened to you during your time in the community. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope it will get people to be more self aware of their actions and that the things they do and say can be very hurtful.

[MJA78]

I wish people would just stop being so prejudice. skin color should never fucking matter, were all human beings, we all have the same organs and deep down we all want to be loved. I am a straight up white dude and I am ashamed of so many people who are the same race as me hating others because of the color of their skin. I actually hope the white race becomes the minority, I really do. Every race has its trash and treasures. 

[Guest DollxBaby]

I see the point made about asexual or merely asking to go slow with a new daddy. It shows maturity and understanding for keeping oneself safe on the middle/littlest part. Yet, despite this, "daddies" reject those who don't want sexual relationships or want to be cautious and take time. It's a damn shame.

[DollDirector]

there is certainly no shortage of contempt. perhaps especially on screens. what strikes me is you say you have looked everywhere. maybe you haven't acted on someone smiling at you at the pool or anywhere else or even from behind a face mask.

 

[dreamsfromcomatose]

I hate to see this, especially from a community I hold in such high regard. I have seen posts in personals saying they don't want any POCs, and I think that is unfair. someone could be overlooking their potential person over something as small as skin color. I don't know personally, but being a non-sexual little must be difficult. I can offer one thing, you may have already given it a go, but I would love to help if I can. Have you looked into the age regression community? If you take away the NSFW side of DDLG, that's the age regression community, non-sexual and solely for the purpose of littles and caregivers that want the relationship, but not the sexual side. I speak for my community when I say I am ashamed you didn't feel welcome here. I'm here if you would like to chat at anytime

[Kapton]

The people you found weren't daddies. They were old men with a sexual fantasy. And there are a whole lot more of them than real, actual daddies.

 

You need to get to a local munch in your area, meet some people, make friends, and I promise you'll find someone in time. If you're under the age of 30 or 35 and don't want someone biologically older, look for a TNG group or munch.

 

Keep trying.

 

/grey-A /gentle-daddy /poly