Caregivers please explain?

[ThatGirlShaka95]

[Guest Aquaman]

maybe im just dumb, but i really cannot tell what you just wrote. what exactly is it that you want explained????

[ThatGirlShaka95]

No, head feels like spaghetti...? Its not all you i promise!

 

Im asking...

Why go through the trouble to earn a littles trust, make them feel safe, make them feel secure, if the flip side is all psycho crazy? (And i gave example)

Maybe its me? (And i listed those.) He knows that im usually by myself(and i gave reason for that.) And so what eould be the purpose of gate crashing all of that, if there was no real intentions beneath?

[Alaskan Daddy]

there is no reason behind his behavior other than the loving trusting side he showed you may not who he really is in his heart. Maybe he did all this 'nice' stuff  so in the end he could manipulate you. For lots of men the hardest part of being a daddy is giving the time and energy it takes to care for your little's emotional side. To get to know and understand them and accept them for who they really are inside their heart. Did he ever give an explanation as to why he acted that way towards you in the end?

My biggest point I want to make is that YOU DID NOTHING WRONG!! I hope my words help you in some way

[ThatGirlShaka95]

[Gandilf]

It's most likely emotional immaturity. Someone that's wishy-washy about how they treat you or how they feel about you isn't confident in their emotions enough to be consistent. Love isn't all glitz and glamour and always having good days. It's consistency. Loving that person despite any questions that they ask, things they go through, etc. It sounds like that particular person isn't fit to be with anyone in general, let alone take on the emotional responsibility of having a little.

[ThatGirlShaka95]

Then i guess my new quest is to focus on having a better eye when choosing. I will work on this and hopefully this wont happen again! The feeling is starting to leave, feeling like i perhaps was a bit demanding? I didnt ask much, honestly. Perhaps it really comes down to being 100% sure ✨

[ThatGirlShaka95]

Then i guess my new quest is to focus on having a better eye when choosing. I will work on this and hopefully this wont happen again! The feeling is starting to leave, feeling like i perhaps was a bit demanding? I didnt ask much, honestly. Perhaps it really comes down to being 100% sure ✨

[Alaskan Daddy]

you need not apologize for your wants and desires in a relationship. He treated you like he did not because of who you are but because of who he is as a person and as a daddy. My advice to you is walk away from the relationship once you feel like things are not right between you and your partner.  Your feelings are important. There is nothing wrong saying 'I don't feel we are compatible'.  If you feel he is or can not satisfy your needs and desires then you he is not the one for you.

[ThatGirlShaka95]

youre right!!! Gah. sometimes its easy to forget that. Confrontation has been a thing i dont take well.? I didn't know how to say it, and risk any negativity in the outcome! As i read your response, its clicking in the brain. Thank you!!

[BobaBubbleyTea]

Hiie everyone is anyone able to direct me to how to create my application to search for my caregiver Ive searched everywhere and am not having any luck. Thank you

[BobaBubbleyTea]

I have a copy of the rules saved as well

[PapaGrayWolf]

Ill do my best to keep this short

Im shaka, im a functioning little, and have been for a while without realizing the name for it! i wont delve into the depths but as an orphan, i know i have my own boogeymen. Despite this, the little in me remains front and center;I find that sometimes the positivity annoys others because its too "bright and bubbly" thats okay if they feel that way, I'll go shine somewhere else! I cant afford to be in the dark, my monsters will catch me.

The only thing about this path i walk, is that BECAUSE of this, when something or someone,

*enter anomaly*

Enters my "forcefield" and then crashes into my ship, its similar to children discovering sugar

He seemed to know me. I opened up..? And a few times the flags would raise...i ignored them.

Finally a switch flipped.

I can be bratty sometimes, but only within reason.

(sleepy or hungry or "crowded" .)

This was a soft question, but it was prodding into his past so i could understand more. If it wasnt for his mentioning, how would i know to ask in the first place??

His first response was to disrespect me...and then lie? As he continues to curse, I didnt curse back...i just shut down. I blocked him on EVERYTHING and went cold turkey. This type of reaction to me from him has happened twice and i couldnt have that happen a third.

My last words to him:

 

"I should never have trusted you."

 

Aka:

 

I "full-metal alchemist'd" myself and told myself that it was okay...Because it is! I set cauterizing fire to the pain and waited for it to die down.

No contact, no venom, Just Silence.

*Longer story shorter*

He comes over, banging, like a psycho. Im by myself. I dont respond well to aggression from anyone, especially men. Women are more easily handled physically aggressively speaking.

Like a frigging deer, im spooked.

Neighbor tries to persuade him im not there- he reveals hes been watching me move around.

*Doe instinct picked that up too. im glad i wasnt being paranoid.*

Cops come and go, then he finally leaves.

My point:

 

He was my Daddy. He shouldve cared to know me enough than to be so rough? Triggering one, and then shoving her back into the dark!!??

He held me once as i was nightmaring.. he didnt wake me... But he told me i was dreaming.

Surely he knew the monsters existed ..

Why play a role you arent ready for?

Why allow me to sleep beside you if it was not serious? Why treat me as if im special, was it charity because you took pity?

On the B side:

After 2½ years of being single and NOT SEXUALLY ACTIVE

Maybe i was just too lonely? Maybe i was too willing to be found? Maybe i was too weak to-

*ahem*

"Off with his head!!"

-upon detection?

And if he is really a Daddy, did he not see that id take this personally? Hes probably out there enjoying things, and im here.

Still in deep space.

In my forcefield.

Only now, theres memories to discard from the voyage.

think a more positive "Riddick" as a girl-little, drifting into cryosleep.

(On his way to new mecca )

I know im weird. I know im off. Thats okay!!! I just expected my Daddy to not be one to handle me that way-with sharp ends.

Thoughts?

(Not easily offended)

You are trying to rationalize the irrational.  That is something most of us (including me) tend to do at times and it's a lesson in frustration. 

 

He is responsible for his own actions, you are not. 

 

Good luck in finding future friends and lovers.  Friend me if you care to.

 

PGW