Lost my little :(

[wolfdaddy]

I just wanted to write this out somewhere where people would get it.

 

So over a year ago I met this amazing little on Reddit. She is an incredibly unique person - funny, kind, sporty, geeky - just this amazing combination of things. We struck up a friendship which turned into a ddlg relationship. And it was just perfect. We were perfect for eachother.

 

Except for one thing. She was in the US and I’m in Australia. And with the travel restrictions there was no way I could come and visit before next year.

 

She had just moved towns for college and was looking forward to all the freedom that this brings (having been raised in a strict household). So I made it clear from the start that my top priority was her happiness and I didn’t want our relationship to get in the way of her having all the wonderful experiences she deserved. And one of those experiences was having an in-person boyfriend to give her the hugs and cuddles and physical presence I so desperately wanted to give her.

 

And in the end this happened, as I knew it someday would. She developed feelings for a guy friend. And it’s just not fair on her and a new relationship to have me hanging around. ‘oh by the way i have this online daddy who I’m romantically and sexually involved with’ isn’t going to go down well with a lot of good guys. She deserves a good guy who will be really sweet to her. So we agreed to part ways. And I always knew that the pain I’m experiencing now was the cost of the ticket of admission. I don’t regret a thing.

 

The relationship was perfect beginning to end and it just brought so much sunshine in my life. I so miss her, but also just miss having little energy in my life and being able to express my daddy side.

 

In the end the greatest act of love I could give her was to step away. And I’m glad we did that in a loving way and said goodbye properly and in a way that honoured the once in a lifetime journey we took together.

 

I will be ok. I just feel so empty now you know? I have all this daddy energy to give and so love giving it, but there’s nowhere for it to go. We split about a month ago.

 

Thanks for listening. I just needed to get that off my chest in a place where people would understand. I’m incredibly picky when it comes to choosing someone to Iove so I don’t imagine a relationship like this coming along any time soon. I waited two years since my first little and I parted ways (again in a beautiful way) before meeting her. Anyway thanks.

[Vampiress]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Sounds like you had an incredible connection. I'm glad there are no regrets there and that you can look back on it with fond memories, and that it sounds like you ended things amicably. That was very thoughtful of you to keep her happiness and needs in mind despite your own wishes and desires to let her fly free and experience the things in life you were unable to provide due to restrictions in your way. I wish you both the best and hope you can both find your own happiness on your new paths.

[Guest Teasing Tink]

Aw, I think it's normal when we lose someone very close and special to us, to grieve. So give yourself space to do that. I suggest you direct all that loving energy welling up inside of you at yourself, because you deserve it. Create your own sunshine. Or if it helps, channel that energy into something that requires those nurturing qualities whether that's caring for an animal or whatever else. It could be a hobby you're passionate about too. Just some ideas.

[(not) Narancia]

This takes such an overwhelming amount of maturity. Holy crap. You're a great dude.

[wolfdaddy]

Thanks everyone for your feedback. It means a lot.

[BadKittenBelle]

I am so sorry for the loss. I've been in something similar with my former Daddy. Take some daddy time. No matter how good the parting was, the loss is still keen. *big comfort hugs, just cause hugs are awesome*

[cummie]

Awh I’m sorry I’ve never had a daddy before but it sounds it’s rough reading this makes me sad