I don't know what to do

[Demondomain]

I don't know if this is where I should post this but I just need some advice I met someone almost 8 years ago and we hit it off great but I was never the first choice so I just was the friend until a few years ago when she finally gave me a chance and I messed it up and she left and I know I was in the wrong then but she came back and we started talking again and old feelings came back for us both and I thought we was doing well and then something happened and she started avoiding me and I was okay with it I let her have space yes it upset me but I knew she was stressed and needed space but then the talking became less and less and finally she just ghosted me this was months ago and I can't let it go and I can't talk to anyone about it because I feel like I should just forget it but I can't I've cared about her for years and the day I met her I knew I loved her I just don't know how to stop feeling so empty about how it ended without her saying anything she just left again

[StrngButSweetDD]

You need to stop and take a breath and use some periods in this post.  It's so frazzled that it's hard to even comprehend.

 

But people are crazy, dating is hard, and the world keeps on turning nonetheless.  Take a breath, ask a question if you have one, but know that sometimes things don't work out and that's just how it goes.

 

Cheers.

[Waffles]

What I got from your post was that you two have known each other for quite awhile. It seemed like there was mutual feelings but somehow you did something and pushed them away. They eventually came back and you two started talking again and the feelings all came flooding back. After that, it seems as though, again, something happened between the two of you (and what it sounds like is that you may have said or done something) and it pushed them away again.

I know this may not be the advice you want to hear, but I would take a moment to reflect on both things that happened. Ask yourself "Why did I do this?" "What could I have done differently?" "How can I ensure that these things don't happen again in the future with another potential partner?" I think that if you can answer these questions, you may find some solace and be able to move on. I'm not sure if you have tried to reach out to this person and give a meaningful apology, but if you haven't, it might be good to do so.

I'm sorry that you are feeling down about this and I hope that you may soon move on, but I seriously would do some searching in yourself to see why you feel this way, what really happened, and the steps you can take to avoid situations like this happening again.