Do you remember being in little space?

[bbubbless]

Hello lovely people, 

 

Being the inquisitive person that I am, I was wondering if the littles, even the middles, remember their little/middle space episodes when they come out of it? I personally remember everything that happened whenever I do slip into little space and was wondering if that was the same for you all? If not, do you forget everything or just parts of it? 

 

I guess it depends on the person and the circumstances as always and perhaps even the little age (mine is between (3-6). 

 

- bubbless 

[Lollipox]

Genuinely not being able to remember sounds like a mental health concern, rather than a cute Little Space thing.

It’s more to do with dissociation or a cognitive issue. Memory loss is something to get checked out if you don’t know the cause of it.

 

And for those who dissociate and become smol, I hope you have someone you trust nearby to keep you safe. Because it’s quite scary to experience that alone, I know.

[LittleTeacup]

Of course I remember Most of the time, I'm just being me and I don't feel much different than my big self except I'm MORE me. Big me has to be conscientious of expected social behavior, like walking calmly in public. Little me (real me) might want to skip or bounce but that's not socially accepted for someone my age in our culture. I save those for when I'm alone or with trusted people. Even when I do get more little-space-y, which I define as when I'm more vulnerable, I still remember just the same as anything else.

[Guest Account deleted]

Aaah that's an interesting question! I do remember very well and I can relate with what Little Teacup explained very well: I'm just being me. I am such a kid at heart that my Little Space is very similar to my daily life, without the obligations, social or professional. Now that my partner and I are "officially" exploring this dynamic, I allow myself to be more dependent on him, and try things that make me go deeper into Little Space. I WILL forget about the Big World!!! But once back in the Big World, I never forget about my Little Space.   

[teddiibears]

i typically dissociate when i regress, especially if my little age is quite young, so i often don't remember it. like, i can remember the moments leading up to it, but not the actual action itself..

[little-luna]

I haven’t been in little space in a long time (as in “deep little space”) but I am kind of “little” with every day life. (similar to those who posted above me!)

So like, the things I do on the daily, or ways i act normally, yes I remember.

But there was this one time i got super deep into little mind that when I woke up the next day, i honestly didn’t remember some of the things i did/said. It was really… weird haha. Cause that never happened to me before. BUT i was communicating with someone who I trusted so I was safe.

 

Really interesting question! Now i want to know what other people have to share hehe

[BabyPineapple]

Little space, to me, is more just about fun playtimes. Because of this I do fully remember everything very clearly since I'm still "me", just doing different activities and allowing myself to have more fun with it.

[anxious_but_sparkly]

I’ve wondered other folks’ take on this too! I actually was really resistant to exploring my little side, even though I’ve known about it for years, because I conflated little space with dissociation. I used to have a DID diagnosis but now land more in DP/DR.

 

In late teens, earlier twenties, the DID was extremely disruptive, even dangerous. I had frequent dissociative fugue states and could be rapidly switching alters basically incessantly af times. Not infrequently I’d come back into my body with no idea where I was, how I got there, or sometimes even who I was with.

 

I did a lot of therapy. (I still do, now I’m my mid thirties.) The therapy I did at that time was not aiming for integration (the I as a system was adamantly against that) but for internal communication and cooperation to reduce risk to the body. I do think that some integration happened naturally over time as I/we grew as a person, but several parts are still quite distinct and can be active.

 

The reason I describe so much about what it’s like living with DID is that, at least for me, little space and dissociation are MUCH different. I definitely don’t remember dissociation (or the memories are all…weird? Hard to explain) but little space, while definitely still an altered state of consciousness I still feel fundamentally like ME just a different age. I remember my experiences and engage with them consciously.

 

Don’t get me wrong, I still go into little space hard. I do even suspect the dissociative issues make it easier to access little space, maybe because my brain is already used to working in funky ways, but again, the two are for me EXTREMELY distinct.

[Guest LittleElizabethBun]

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[Guest littlebunny84]

I'd have to agree with what several others have already mentioned.  Dissociating would suggest mental health issues and memory loss is a concern.  Those things are not fun, they're frightening.  I remember when I'm in little space, my memory of it is clear and happy.  When I don't remember something it's alarming and upsetting and not something I associate with little space but, rather, mental health.