feeling all the feels and its not fun

[Elly1983]

*sigh* so I have an absolutely AMAZING wonderful daddy that really gets me as a person and what I need in my life.

 

he really seems to understand that I have a big need to have a mommy in my life as well as having him as a daddy

 

as well as that I want to have my own partners that are littles and explore my switch side of myself.

 

but the truth of the matter is that even though I am actively searching I am not getting a lot of people showing interest in me and I know that if I want something good and genuine and not fake!

 

as well romantic and long term than I must adhere to the value of "patience is indeed a virtue!" lol however I am a little!! and littles can be inpatient lil things lol well maybe that's just me but I know I can!!

 

it most certainly does not help me in anyway that daddy is over an hour away from me. and because I was horrible car accident about two weeks ago I do not have a vehicle of my own any more.

 

I just know my lil brat lil side is popping her ugly brat head right now and screaming "I want it! I want it! I WANT IT!!!" lol and my mommy side of my brain wants to put brat side in friggin corner just to shut her up!! lmao

 

I know eventually I will find all the things I am seeking and be happy! just right now is proving to be difficult for me.