I had my first sexual experience while regressed

[Bubbles_and_Feathers]

I'm a switch, and my baby girl is a middle. Normally I regress in age involuntarily and there's nothing sexual about it, and at other times I just feel very protective and nurturing and I want nothing more than to protect and provide for her and help her with big things and have fun with her.
 

Normally during sexy times she wants me to act as a caregiver, which... I can act that out. But today we were having a serious conversation following an argument, and I ended up regressing, and it was a super trippy experience, and... I dunno. I ended up feeling lovey and small at the same time, feeling completely safe with her, able to express myself and not have it be bad. Just completely safe and trusting. It was just... beautiful. I've never experienced that before.

I dunno. I just wanted to share that. I guess I understand the sexual aspect of CGL now like I never did before.

A question, though- for you, does it have to do with trauma? It did for me. It was like revisiting those times and having a better, nicer, experience with it where I felt safe and comfy and happy. Replacing the old memories and associations. I dunno. I've just never experienced that before. So I'm curious about how many others experience it from that perspective and what it's like when it's not coming from that place.

[LittlePupRune]

For me I do not believe it has to do with trauma, at least not explicit trauma. I was the eldest sibling and in addition there was a lot of cultural and religious pressure as well. I was also raised as a girl and being trans I did not experience the boyhood I wanted, so for me I believe being little mostly has to do with that, being able to be carefree and childlike without pressures of culture and gender.

[babybunnyx97]

Hi I don't think it's related to trauma for me either. As LittlePupRune said, in my case it could also be related more to pressure and also anxiety. It could be related to trauma but in a different way. I went through a traumatic experience as an adult, this event happened when I was 20, and after it I developed depression, changed my behaviour/personality in some ways, developed bad habits, etc. Sometimes I wonder if being little is like a self protection mechanism to cope with that. Like I can't deal with those memories and I need to go back to a happy and simpler time in my life like my childhood. So it could be related to trauma in that way for me, but not to a childhood trauma

[Lilonepersephone]

I think this is really beautiful, I was actually talking to my therapist today about me being a little, and that I am a sexual little as well, she did actually literally just this morning validate that yes regression is often a result of trauma, and that it can be very therapeutic so I am very happy for you.

[Bearly]

Not CGL but I do have a trauma-related kink so I can totally understand that, and it's surprisingly common, from what I've seen, to have a kink that's based on re-experiencing a trauma but on your own terms.

[Guest LaPetitePrincesseDeLaLune]

I experience this as well! You're not alone! I was sexually abused starting as a very young child (4), so for me, I think it probably is related to getting to be safe like I wasn't. My regression is involuntary for the most part, but now that I'm getting a little less scared by it, sometimes it comes on pretty gently. I don't know if I would have necessarily looked for a sexual relationship with a Daddy if it wasn't my fiance, but because it is, it's just kind of a natural melding of the two. I don't know if that makes sense, but I feel like I don't 100% regress, like I don't think I feel fully like a 4 year old, or I wouldn't be able to be sexual. But I agree that it is a very sweet, genuine, wholesome thing to experience. Definitely profoundly healing.