Little Space Tsunami

[Bambi the Kitten]

I read "Stuck in Little Space" with the hopes that it might help, but what I'm experiencing seems a bit different.

 

I've always been a Little, even before I knew that was a "thing". Even my parents (though they're still unaware it's a "thing") knew- when I was 16, my mum would brush my hair while I watched Disney movies, or surprise me with coloring books because she knew I love that stuff; me being cranky and using a not-big-girl voice didn't seem strange.

 

What I'm trying to get across I'd that being in Little Space to varying degrees is somewhat of a constant for me.

 

Saying that, I came into my first DD/lg relationship last year (it ended early this year), and it was- as one may expect- a completely new set of experiences from what I'd had in non-Daddy relationships and in my "just me" Little Space (much more intense). After the end of that relationship, I gradually readjusted to my "just me" carry-through Little Space.

 

Recently, I've come into a new DD/lg relationship... which I wasn't expecting.

 

I live with roommates, and am weird in plenty of ways, so me Little Spacing on a regular basis is usually attributed to my "quirkiness" or general goofballery, but I adult ("adulting" being a verb) daily. In other words: I'm a big girl often enough for people who witness me being Little to think I'm just silly and weird.

 

Which brings me back to my current relationship:

We (he and I) came into this relationship with a "regular" BDSM construct in and out of the bedroom (he's mainly Dominant, though we do occasionally switch; tying, spanking,titles, and the like). We hadn't discussed other... kinks, I suppose, too much outside of what we'd originally layed out, and I was fine with that. I'd been perfectly happy doing my own Little things, and I didn't feel the need to point out I have a Little side just then since I was content.

 

Emphasis on the past tense.

 

About 2 weeks ago, we stumbled upon the topic of DD/lg relationships in our conversation. Without me asking or giving any sign (to my knowledge) I'd want such a thing, he said he actually really liked the idea of being a Daddy. I sat with the thought for a couple days, as I still hadn't given a clear "yes, absolutely". Then, about a week ago, I called him "Daddy" in the heat of the moment. His face lit up, and it was honestly one of the best (top five) nights of my life.

 

But here's the problem:

Now that I've called him Daddy, I don't want to stop- I almost /can't/. The last few days, if I so much as look at him, I go hardcore Little Space almost automatically. It's like even though I felt my Little needs were satisfied on my own and in (what I thought would be) a non-DD/lg relationship, my needs actually /weren't/ met, and now my Little is overwhelming- a tsunami.

 

I can still function, get grown-up things done, etc., but I'm afraid I now seem like a completely different person. He chose to be with me because of how I was, and of course people change, but this was sudden and... /intense/. Daddy hasn't said anything critical about it, which is somewhat of a comfort, but it bothers /me/. I like being able to adult sometimes and have grown-up conversations with my Daddy, and it's frustrating that I'm unable to do so lately; going deeply Little (opposed to my previous often-but-managable states) as soon as I know he's there.

 

Thoughts? Advice?

[Guest Lovesdaddy1972]

May I suggest journaling?  Sometimes when I couldn't talk to my Daddy I would write stuff down and then give it to him to read.  It gave me an opportunity to let my thoughts flow freely without being intimidated by face to face interaction or worrying I would get interrupted.  Sometimes he would even write back to me in it.  Plus it's something you can have/keep and look back on.

[Guest MyDaddyMyWorld]

Sounds like a similar thing to "sub frenzy".

A rush of hormones, emotional responses, over enthusiasm etc. Its like new relationship stuff that everyone goes through to varying degrees, but with an added intensity when you relate it to this kind of lifestyle.

[Bambi the Kitten]

Thank you, guys. I appreciate the input ^-^
My Daddy's started going into... well, Daddy mode more frequently/ spontaneously, which has actually made things much easier for me. Now that he goes into Daddy mode without me needing obvious Little attention, the tsunami, as it were, has calmed dramatically.
Me going into Little Space hasn't changed in frequency, but the anxiety and neediness behind it has dissipated- I don't feel the need to "stay an adult" because I know he loves me the way I am, and the lack of stress has made it easier to adult when I need to.

[Guest littlemissragamuffin]

It sounds like you'he got a good thing going :3