Do authority figures ever just launch you into little/middlespace by accident???

[Guest xodoe]

Hi everyone 

 

I'm in a predicament and I want to talk to other people about it. I am a middle who is single.

 

I have someone in my life who makes me absolutely melt and instantly sends me into middlespace. But he isn't doing it on purpose!!!

 

He is my former professor who has been a very kind and supportive mentor in my life. He is probably 20 years older than me and he is married. He's never come onto me or anything, he has just been someone who helps guide and teach me.

 

He's done a few things that just instantly put me into middlespace. One time I was feeling really unconfident and I tried to cancel an event and he made me do it anyway. I can't stop thinking about him sometimes especially this week since I know I will be at a meeting where he will be present. 

 

He's so caring and handsome and I feel like I have this massive attachment to him which makes me so giddy and excited. I just wish he would make me his little girl and I fantasize about him wanting to guide me in that way.

 

He is still active in my life and I just don't know what to do with all these feelings!!!!! It's been hard to sleep because I'm so nervous to talk to him soon. Help me please!!!!!

[Guest Dandy Blob]

This happens to me constantly. I actually avoid a certain person because just them being NEAR me sets me off into little/middle mode. I am not sure what to do about it either.   

[MissPattch]

absolutely >.< and usually at the most inappropriate times too lol. Its usually when they are being very direct, or stern, or just stating fact. Or when they tell me to do something. Trips me every single time. I very much doubt anything is ever going to happen with this person, but i love the way i feel when it happens. I'm not even sure if they know they're doing it either. Its a little bittersweet, but at the same time, my little maso self revels in it :/

 

I wouldn't ever come out and tell this person what goes on in my head when they do what they do, not only because it might back fire and totally ruin the connection we have, but because they already have somebody else too, just like your professor. An unrequited "love" is much better than the thought of this person totally walking out of my life...

[Guest xodoe]

Oh no that's what I'm worried about too. I can hide it inside of me but I just really want him...

This happens to me constantly. I actually avoid a certain person because just them being NEAR me sets me off into little/middle mode. I am not sure what to do about it either.   

[Guest xodoe]

absolutely >.< and usually at the most inappropriate times too lol. Its usually when they are being very direct, or stern, or just stating fact. Or when they tell me to do something. Trips me every single time. I very much doubt anything is ever going to happen with this person, but i love the way i feel when it happens. I'm not even sure if they know they're doing it either. Its a little bittersweet, but at the same time, my little maso self revels in it :/

 

I wouldn't ever come out and tell this person what goes on in my head when they do what they do, not only because it might back fire and totally ruin the connection we have, but because they already have somebody else too, just like your professor. An unrequited "love" is much better than the thought of this person totally walking out of my life...

 

This makes me sad. Yeah I doubt anything would happen but the little girl inside of me is such a dreamer and really hoping that maybe he and his wife are open-minded. I wouldn't ever just come out and say it though, for the same reasons you said. I don't want to ruin a professional relationship. Maybe it will get better once I have a daddy...

[Pupperoo]

I think teachers can have such an effect on their students even without them being little/middle. I guess it multiplies since you have an actual headspace to signify the age gap. Is it really a bad thing that you go into middlespace? It makes you more receptive and it helps you listen to him, it sounds like.

As for the feelings... I don't know what to say there ^^ I hope they fade away over time, would be a shame for him to have to leave your life because of them

[Vampiress]

I would say this has happened to me in the past long before I knew what DD/lg was. Mainly with a few teachers in school and a few older co-workers when I used to work at the mall. Hasn't happened in a very long time, though.