"regression" - a venting/poetic thing. [tw]

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massive tw for: mentions of mental health (dissociation), impure agere, sexual themes, self-harm (mental, not physical), guilt, extreme negativity.

 

it appears that i've gained quite the taste for self-hatred.

the kind of self-hatred that disgusts me to death.

the one that forces me to regress when i shouldn't.

when i'm hurt. when i'm sad. when you fuck me, even.

should i be ashamed of myself? maybe, since...

these sick thoughts pull me away from my purity.

i'm not entirely here. i'm long-gone, actually.

my mind drifted away to a place where reality isn't a thing.

don't feel bad, please. it'd never be your fault.

you treat me so well, you love me so much.

i simply am empty. my regression has been corrupted.

i damage myself by turning a pure thing into the worst i've

always ran away from: i turned my regression into sin.

 

...and i never felt this disgusted.