Little Space: A Secret Life

[Guest clumsy_little]

Not everyone here has there own house. Some live with their parents, in hostel or have a flatmate. In my case, I live with my family where there's less chance of privacy. Locking your door is considered you are sinning behind the doors, in other words masturbation. I was taught how to be independent which includes cooking, knowing about finance, politics, how to keep the house clean, etc. which makes the chances of slipping into little space really... thin. i can't buy binkies since my parents are really nosy and want to know everything that's in the house. Thank goodness I have stuffies because my sister is 10 and still like them, plus they find me having an attachment with them cute. About the clothes.. well if they are cute, only then they'll buy it. Do you guys have any ways where you can completely slip into little space with situation like mine? The only time I can completely slip into it is when I'm over my bestie's house who lives alone. He knows about my little side and takes care of me when I'm into little space.

 

Tip: If your parents are like mine and you want a coloring book, you can always print a coloring page, color it when your parents aren't home and then later throw it away (even tho it hurts me a lot because my little side took a lot of effort to color it)

[Guest lilchug]

Omg! Same! I live with my crazy strict parents. It’s really inconvenient to do anything little. I even had to hide my crayons and coloring books. One time my mom found my naughty toy and my bottle. I had to endure days of lectures. I’m not sure if you’re allowed to do this with your parents, but I asked them to leave me alone for privacy. They would have to knock the door and ask to come in. I don’t bother hiding my little stuff anymore. If she sees them, I’ll just answer any questions she has! She can think that I’m weird. They’ve been giving me the privacy I asked for so far, I’ve been able to be in little space and do little stuff then.

 

Don’t throw away your coloring pages!!!! They’re precious! Keep them in a secret folder! Also I’m glad you have a friend who understands and supports you in this lifestyle or when you’re little!

[freekittyx3]

I totally understand! I’m in the same situation although I’m able to sneak in stuff, like my pacis, coloring books, stuffies, cute clothes etc but I definitely hide them. It’s hard to be in an environment where you can’t fully be yourself. I use the opportunity when no one is home to let my little side out more, but it doesn’t work out that way typically. I have yet to find myself being able to really relax and be my little self...sometimes I do late at night when everyone is sleeping and there is a slightly less chance of having someone pop into my room. And even then it’s a problem. One time I fell asleep with my paci in my mouth and my mother ended up going into my room and seeing me! I definitely made an excuse and thankfully she didn’t ask about it. I honestly don’t think I’ll be able to fully be myself until I move out. In the mean time I find that simple things like my favorite Disney movies make me feel happy and very little. You are not alone! Edited May 26, 2020 by freekittyx3

[Guest clumsy_little]

Omg! Same! I live with my crazy strict parents. It’s really inconvenient to do anything little. I even had to hide my crayons and coloring books. One time my mom found my naughty toy and my bottle. I had to endure days of lectures. I’m not sure if you’re allowed to do this with your parents, but I asked them to leave me alone for privacy. They would have to knock the door and ask to come in. I don’t bother hiding my little stuff anymore. If she sees them, I’ll just answer any questions she has! She can think that I’m weird. They’ve been giving me the privacy I asked for so far, I’ve been able to be in little space and do little stuff then.

 

Don’t throw away your coloring pages!!!! They’re precious! Keep them in a secret folder! Also I’m glad you have a friend who understands and supports you in this lifestyle or when you’re little!

We already had a conversation on giving me privacy, but after 3-4 days, it's like they completely forget that the conversation even took place. Knowing them if they even find any naughty toy, something on my history browser or got to know about my little side, high chance they'll disown me and kick out or send me to mental asylum.

[Guest lilchug]

We already had a conversation on giving me privacy, but after 3-4 days, it's like they completely forget that the conversation even took place. Knowing them if they even find any naughty toy, something on my history browser or got to know about my little side, high chance they'll disown me and kick out or send me to mental asylum.

I'm sorry to hear that What about another talk with your parents about privacy and then straight after place a please knock sign on the door as a reminder for them!

[Guest clumsy_little]

I'm sorry to hear that What about another talk with your parents about privacy and then straight after place a please knock sign on the door as a reminder for them!

We had this talk a lot of times. 

[LittleTeacup]

I'm really sorry your parents can't respect your privacy. I still live with mine, but they stay out of my business and don't poke around. Besides, I've always been kinda little and I also have ASD so I think they assume any little behavior is related to that. Even I think there's overlap. Also I'm at an age where my parents probably assume I masturbate but don't mention it. I mean, I'm 29 and don't have any partner yet have functioning hormone cycles. It'd be weird to assume I didn't. I also don't use pacis or diapers or something they might really question if they saw. On the other hand, if I ordered something in the mail and didn't inform them what it was, they'd see it in the mail tracking and ask what I ordered curiously. I generally only buy books or something cute from etsy or band merchandise so if I hedged I don't know what they'd think So I'd never order a sex toy for instance, although I'm too embarrassed to probably even order one if I lived on my own.

 

I see you're from India so your culture probably makes things like this a lot harder than in some other places. Perhaps showing them examples of other adults doing things you want to do might help? Like advertisements for those adult coloring books meant to relieve stress in a simple creative way. Or a video of a doctor talking about something. I wish I could help more but I don't really have to hide much.