Trying to Understand Who I am

[Guest LittleBabyBunny5683]

Afternoon all!

Hope you are all doing ok.

 

I don't really post on here much. Actually, I think this might only be my second time. I wanted a safe place to get out some of things going round my head and as I don't have anyone I feel I can talk to. 

I have been trying to discover who I am, what drives me and what I want out of my existence for quite some time. I discovered my DDLG side when I was 18 - 10 years later and i'm starting to understand what it means to me and what I want.

 

Do you ever feel like you have spent a long time making all the wrong choices in your life - just to find out something that now seems quite obvious?


Bunny x
 

Edited May 21, 2020 by LittleBabyBunny5683

[Little kaiya]

Sometimes in life it takes time and experience to truly understand something or to find the right words to express something.

 

I didn't really come to understand I'm genderfluid until I was 39. The words weren't available and I couldn't really grasp what it meant completely. Now, gender is certainly not a choice but looking back it definitely is something that is now very obvious.

 

To me, choices are only "wrong" if you look back at them and can honestly say they added no value to your life which I think would be very rare.

[Guest LittleBabyBunny5683]

Little Kaiya,

 

Thank you for writing back! Really appreciate your thoughts!

I often feel that were wrong choices because in hindsight I can see that things would have gone better if I hadn't of made certain choices. I mean they have some level of value because i wouldn't be at this point of realisation without them. However, I also feel I may have been in a better head space or life situation if I had made better choices.

Bunny x

[Guest bad_apple]

I feel like life is a continuous self discovery process. With people I meet or situations I am put into, I always learn a little something new about myself.

 

There are things where I retrospectively think I'd could have gone different about them but now I've got experience to draw from to help me with other choices in the future and maybe make better decisions.

That's doesn't help make poor choices go away but it feels like it does improve my judgment. If that makes sense haha

[Guest LittleBabyBunny5683]

Thank you!

I understand that. I feel this is part of the learning process for me. I have a better idea what works and what doesn't work. Therefore, I hope, I can make improved choices next time!

Edited May 21, 2020 by LittleBabyBunny5683

[DeltaSaves]

I have felt this way. The last 5 years or so, I have really gotten to learn a lot about myself. Got involved in BDSM in my late teenage years, but didn't really get into DDLG until a few years ago. The "basic" BDSM relationship didn't quite fulfill me in a way that DDLG has. It hits different for sure. And being that I'm now in my 30s, I can fully explain what I am looking for and not just accepting whatever kind of Dom(mme) passes my way. 

 

Looking back, I have appreciated the experiences I've had (in the most part, as we all have something we facepalm HARD at). Those experiences I can lend to those I care for in my work, be it their families or the patients themselves. I needed those "bumps" in the road to help me grow into the woman I know I can continue to strive to be. 

 

All of you also seem like lovely people as well. 

[Guest LittleBabyBunny5683]

DeltaSaves,

Thank you for writing back!

From what you all are saying, i'm seeing expereinces, positive or negative, have got people where they are now. I feel like I also know now what I want from a DDLG/BDSM relationship/experiences and I also know that not having all aspects of this does make me feel like i'm missing something important!

I agree - you all seem like lovely people. I truely appreciate your time and thoughts!

Bunny x