I feel so old, and it's hurting my little heart..

[lil-kitten-kisses]

I always light up when I see children because I understand them and wish I could be them or at least their friend. It's kind of a nostalgic and comforting feeling to see children having fun and being their young, creative, naive selves.. But recently it has started to make me feel jealous and sad. I want the cute frilly clothes.. I want to be adorable.. I want preschool.. I want to believe in santa. And so much more that I can't even list. I mean, being an adult means I have freedom, and sexuality. And that is great and all.. But it makes me feel so old.. Being an adult hurts my heart so bad. I want to be treated like the sweet and sensitive little girl that I am in my heart. I don't want to be verbally abused by costumers at work because I am "old enough" to handle it.. It hurts me. I'm sensitive. I wish people would be more gentle with me as they are to real children. I wish I could be silly and naive again. I'm angry at myself because I grew up too fast. I wish that I enjoyed my youth more. Everyday I wish I could go back and experiance open youth. I want to be who I am and not have to hide it. I'm in pain and I don't know how to feel better.

 

I figured maybe some other littles have felt this way before, that's why I am in here posting this topic. If you have felt this way, what did or do you do to comfort yourself?

[Guest Pouty Kitten]

Aww, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I can feel like this at times when I'm super busy and don't really have time to be in my little space. You could try setting a specific day or time of day where you dedicate to being little- see how that helps your emotions and I'm sure you'll feel a little more comfortable in your skin

[Vlad ziva's Owner]

I can definitely relate to growing up too fast. I wish I would have been able to be a child much longer, but life got in the way, and I don't even identify as a little

I'd definitely recommend what pouty kitten said. Set aside some time for yourself where you can just be little and not worry about anything. Do the little things that you enjoy, like coloring or watching Disney movies. Hang out with friends that are other littles, either online in something like the chat here or the skype group, or with little friends around your area. I'm sure that will help you a lot

[Guest Daddy's☆treasure]

i know how you feel and i'm sorry that it's getting you down like this. i too agree with pouty kitten you should set aside some time just for your "little" self and see how you go. Maybe you could also make a point of treating yourself to something for your little space once a week be it crayons, a colouring book, stuffie or something edible like special ice-cream or lollies/candy.

 

i also think Vlad ziva's Papa Kitty makes a good point about spending time with other littles on here, chat or elsewhere.

 

i really hope you start to feel better soon! *hugs*

[Darkling]

They all have awesome suggestions...... 
Adult life is difficult for everyone sometimes. We all have different coping ways. Me... i stick on my onsie and ignore it for an evening. Get everything done i need to during the day.. then eat ice cream and watch cute movies and cuddle my pixicle or manda...... It helps.