a Reflection of Ddlg

[Guest ProfessorDaddy33]

I am unsure how to begin this post. Living during this pandemic has developed certain new characteristics in me or at least elicited more dormant aspects of who I am and it’s impacted my understanding of many parts of my life including my perception of ddlg and my self-perception. I am a very genuine and caring person, and yet I have a a variety of personal challenges that seem to negate the possibility of me being a good Daddy. If that is discouraging to many people that’s okay. I have learned I am self-reliant despite my desire to be in a ddlg relationship. To be honest and fair, I have been in a few online relationships, the girls (I’m monogamous, so it was never girls as in plurality or more than one partner at a time, which is just my preference) have typically been very fun and interesting and still for one reason or another the relationship ended.

Currently I am not in a relationship and this post is not about finding a relationship. This forum has a section for that and I am explicitly informing that is not the thrust of why I am writing this reflection. I doubt most people will even read my post in its entirety. However, with that said, being single again (I’ll take the blame for the last relationship to end) during the pandemic has complicated my understanding of what I want from ddlg and how I perceive it. One of the many misunderstandings about ddlg people have is that it conceals inappropriate desires and enables an individual to find a justified way of experiencing something that is illegal. To me, ddlg or rather specifically innately having a quality of who I am that enjoys being a Daddy has never implicitly been associated with illegal desires masked in a justified way. I honestly do like the dynamics and the playfulness involved in a Daddy/little relationship. I have much to learn still to be a better Daddy especially online. That brings me to another aspect of ddlg relationships that have been emphasized to me because of Covid19. It enables people to connect vicariously online through dialogue and small gestures such as a hug which with social distancing isn’t a possibility right now unless you live with your partner or partners or whatever type of relationship you may be in.

Like I said, I am currently single and this is not a post intended to find a little. In fact, I am unsure what I am even looking for at this point. I do not know if I want friendship, a partner, advice, or even personal insight from other people’s experiences. Usually when I write a report, essay, or post I have a conclusion. The only thing I have to say to finish this post up is I apologize if I have wasted anyone’s time or hurt someone’s feelings for not being a better Daddy. I suppose at least with the pandemic ongoing I will have time to continue to read other people’s posts throughout the many sections of the forum, I will be able to learn what ddlg means to me and hopefully learn to improve myself so I can at least offer my experience to those who want to hear what I have to say someday. If nobody wants to learn from my journey, that’s also alright, because ultimately I am trying to just develop a clearer picture of what ddlg means to me.

[angelflower]

Nothing wrong with that, sometimes it's good to take a step back and focus on yourself for awhile. I think it's good that you're trying to better understand yourself before you launch yourself into a new relationship. 

[Guest ProfessorDaddy33]

Thank you for reading my post.

[Vampiress]

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Edited December 21, 2020 by Vampiress