[Guest littlexbuttercup]

Me and my mommy are engaged and have been since October ‘19. Just in the last week her dad passed, pretty much my dad too. She has been good on not taking anything out on me but we have had arguments before that end in her yelling that i am worthless and i am too much work to be with. She has anger issues and is medicated but the more i start to think about the future with her i second guess it, a lot. I currently live with her in her parents home so if we ended things i would have no where to go considering my mom is very much not supportive. On the good days i think i am stupid and then i make one wrong face and i have started world war 3 and anything i say is wrong

[Vampiress]

That sounds like a really unhealthy relationship the way she treats you, especially if the "good" days you feel stupid. You're not stupid or worthless, by the way. That's just her lashing out and possibly projecting how she feels about herself. Do you have a job? Could you maybe afford soonish to get a roommate and move out? There's always people advertising looking for roommates and it really helps keep all the bills down, sometimes even all the utilities are included. I hesitate to encourage you to leave right away because I don't want to see you homeless, but I think you deserve better than what you're receiving and I sincerely hope you can form a plan so that you end up somewhere safe should you decide not to see the rest of this relationship through. The person you're going to marry should make you feel happy, supported, loved, and cherished. From what you said, it doesn't sound like you're getting any of that in your relationship... at least not consistently. You can also find different resources in your area to help you find housing.

[SmolAetherr]

so, tell her it can't continue, tell her you dont see a future if she is treating you this way.