I'm broken

[Guest ♥️ Hayden Babygirl♥️]

I got so many people around me who love me.

I got lovers, and I got my husband.

But I still feel so broken

Ever since losing my grandpa and baby I feel all alone.

My heart feels heavy and shit.

I hide it so well.

But inside I'm broken.

I miss you grandpa.

And I miss my child I never got to hold.

 

[Lilith-Lynn-Lupin]

Sweet Kitty,

 

I am not going to say that the pain will go away, but it will lessen. Two huge losses in a short amount of time is very hard to deal with. Particularly a child. No one expects you to be okay, and you have every right to be super angry!! My advice though it is not worth much, is to let that anger out. All the people that love you will catch you after the storm. However you have to let it rage or it will ruin all of the beautiful relationships you have created. You are too sweet to let that happen!!

 

Love,

LLL

[Guest ♥️ Hayden Babygirl♥️]

Dear Lilith

thank you so much for the kind words helped me feel better.

[Vampiress]

Aww I'm so sorry Kitty. That's really awful and I can't even begin to imagine the pain you're feeling. You have every right to feel all your feelings, but don't forget self-care, and don't forget it is also okay in your own time to work on healing. You say you hide it, but I imagine your loved ones would love to be there for you if given the chance. Consider sharing with them your struggles because they know you best and can give you the best support. Don't be afraid to let them help pick you back up, it's so hard to do it by yourself. And please don't push them away, a lot of us do that when we're hurting and struggling even if what we really want is just to be loved and supported. I wish you all the best and I hope that in time you are able to find yourself in a happy place again because you deserve it.

 

I would like to recommend if you have Steam or a PC to get the "game" Kind Words. It's not really so much a game, but you can anonymously write letters asking for support, asking questions, etc and people will anonymously respond. They also send in-game stickers and it's just a really wholesome community full of support. I've gotten so many kind letters from people in it when I've been struggling and sent out tons more letters of support to other people.

[Guest ♥️ Hayden Babygirl♥️]

Thank you so much.

[moonmochi ☆]

Kitty, I'm really sorry to hear about all of this. It's going to take a while, but the hurt will heal. It's perfectly okay to feel how you're feeling and have the thoughts you may be having, don't try and stop them! Noticing them and letting them go at their own pace helps you to accept the emotions you're dealing with. And I want you to know that if you ever need someone to reach out to, I'm here and willing to listen. Please make sure you're taking care of yourself and doing the things you love!