My story - My example (TW)

[EvieTheOne]

If anything constructive and forward pushing came out of those four long years of thick fog and mountains of loss and grieving, it was my turning to writing and forging a more fortified self, a more knowledgeable self, and, at the same time, a more humbled self,and outlook on life, my purpose,if any, and my relationships.

My story is that of many in the BDSM communities, ddlg including: I fell in love with a charmer,a liar, a mirage, and when some months down the line I found out the magnitude of what I've got myself entangled in, I had a nervous breakdown. The truth didn't fit any of my reality about who I thought I was or how I should live my life. I didn't know he was a Dom, heavily involved with BDSM, poly, bi,sadistic, narcissistic with psychopathic tendencies, and meeting him and his entourage would change me and my life forever. I just knew that as soon as I found out, meaning when things didn't add up I started digging, quite a few side chicks, guys, and a wife fel outta his closet, some of them murderously jealous of me, the newcomer to the orgy, not that I knew I was involved in one, at all.

It was an online thing, on a vanilla dating site, with, what I thought was one person, but it turned out there were a bunch of them, men and women, a whole, what they called "family".

I said my polite goodbye after I found out, given that I wasn't interested. I licked my wounds for a while after being duped this way and I would've been just fine, if they didn't decide to put pressure on me to join him/them. I resisted for a while, and rejected the offer, until it got real nasty and spread in the online BDSM communities like a wildfire. Clearly, my story touched on a few guilty consciences. They turned out to be celebrities from my home country with lots of power and money and fame to their names. I started noticing snippets of our private conversation popping up, in public forums and pages, then used to emotionally blackmail or threaten me through fake accounts. When it got to rape and death threats, I broke down, and was contemplating suicide. I begged them to leave me alone, stop interfering with my life and my business, but they wouldn't, and any one on here familiar with the psychological upbuilt of narcissistic psychopathic personalities knows I didn't have a chance. They laughed at it and carried on while I got more and more anxious and depressed. I felt there's no way out to escape and I hated my life. I wanted to end it.

That lowest moment and my dog became my motivators to pull out of it though...long months later, I set out to fight, to stand up, speak up and thus help the community's vulnerable population see the truth, and see their own worth, and know that a it's true, a shaking up was needed in terms of ethics and BDSM.

I got punished because I pulled quite a few bdsm-ers masks, I didn't hold back on exposing their inhumane and sneaky ways to approach vanilla people, not to protect their identities and wellbeing.

Today I know, and I don't give a sh*t who say what, that I'm not a slave, not bi curious, not poly, not into weed, not into BDSM per se, not into pain, that I am a kinkster with my own stuff that might or might not match yours, and if they don't, you're welcome to leave, but deffo not exercise any pressure on me, because today, I'd have no reticence getting a lawyer or calling the police.

I've got two pieces I wrote back then..

One pertaining to the psychological damage of gaslighting band abandonment in an age regression, the other to the sickening gangbang while I was age regressed.

I've learned so much about myself and deceit in the online environment that today I wouldn't trust as far as I can throw, nor would I bear my soul online, with anything that I haven't already made public. I cannot stand betrayal of trust, and once it happened, I'm out.

You'd honour me to read them in the order of upload.

 

Thank you for reading and understanding.

 

Love

 

EvieTheOne ❤️

 

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https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2071993286422387&id=1718905221731197

[MissPattch]

I have nothing but respect, love and understanding for you, friend. Its takes inhumane strength to came back from something so traumatic, and then to feel comfortable enough to share with others, so that they might see the risks they didn't before. ♡

[EvieTheOne]

Thank you ❤ that's really all what's needed to recover from trauma, to be seen, to be heard, to be held, thus validated as a human being, as one of us.xx

[Guardian_Witcher]

Deep hugs if that is okay. It took a lot of courage to stand up to those people who hurt you. And I'm glad you survived. I'm sorry that they put you through a world of emotional manipulation and pain. And I'm glad you are still with us. I have no words that can do greater justice than what you said, other than you were seen and heard and appreciated by one more soul and I'm glad you are here with better people. Best wishes. And deep deep hugs.

[EvieTheOne]

Thank you ❤ I wasn't always this brave..and kind and heartfelt words (and deep hugs) from those in the community mean a lot to me because I'm thinking that if we are aware, we can support each other so that less and less harm is done and we're actually showing that as a community we don't sweep abuse under the carpet but our doing our best to eradicate it. Thank you again!

[Guest QueenJellybean]

moderator note:

i'm going to throw a TW into the title of this, just for the nature of this story.

 

a not at a all moderator note: 

thank you for sharing. it may seem sometimes that BDSM pumps out a lot of cookie-cutter images; especially in our community. 

there's a lot of pressure to act a certain way to be deemed "a little", or for your dynamic to look a certain way to be considered a "DDLG relationship". 

i think here at the Forum we do our best to be deeply inclusive, and make sure that whomever walks through our doors

(polya, mono, bisexual, straight, asexual, mdlg, ddlb, platonic caregiver, age regressor, etc.) 

that this community welcomes all safe, consensual and age-appropriate practices of kink. 

 

i'm really, really glad you found us, and i hope that you feel at home here.  

[EvieTheOne]

Thank you ❤ your words are reassuring!