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I feel like it’s wrong for your online caregiver to not talk to you for a week as a punishment for thinking suicidal :/ because I can’t go into little space without her and a week is really long

[Little kaiya]

That is seriously unhealthy and a clear indication the person you are talking to online has ZERO understanding of suicidal ideation.

 

That said, what I think is far more important is that you reach out to get real help that is local to you. Suicidal ideation is not something to be taken lightly, I used to do crisis intervention specializing in suicide and depression.

 

Little space and an online caregiver are nice but they are not a substitute for proper care from a trained mental health care professional. You've also said in another post that individual that you talk to isn't your caregiver, you just call her mommy, because she said it's too much work and responsibility. I highly encourage you to take a step back and focus on your mental health. If you are still experiencing suicidal thoughts then please, please go and get proper support and care. Don't play around with it and don't rely on someone on the internet, who by your own words isn't even your caregiver.

 

Little kaiya

Edited November 1, 2019 by Little kaiya

[Guest Littledreamer95]

I agree with kaiya. It's seriously unhealthy. 

A suicidal person should never be left alone specially by your caregiver..  Not to mention shouldn't be dealt with as a punishment.

Love, support and understanding is what you actually need. 

So sorry this happened to you.

[Guest Sunshinekitty]

I agree. You don't withhold love, affection, or presence from anyone as a punishment.

 

And now the other side of the coin--it can be very hard for someone who hasn't experienced those thoughts to understand how it feels, the headspace you're in, or even what they can or should do to help.

 

Soo. First thing you need to do is make sure any therapist you have knows what you're going through so they can help you.

 

Second? If you can get yourself to do this, send links from suicide prevention, etc., to educate your CG. My suspicion is that they don't have a good grasp on how to deal with this very serious issue.

 

Third? If they do know what this is like...and they do things like this all the time, get yourself healthy, kick them to the curb, and find someone else who plans to care about you better.

 

I know things feel hard and impossible right now, but life circumstances change. You can get through this.

[Guest sanwiooaf]

The silent treatment should NEVER be given as a punishment! Ever!

 

Please go and get help. Speak to someone, ask someone to sit with you for awhile. I'm suicidal myself and suffer with severe depression and I know how helpful it is having someone there, even if they don't talk and just sit beside you. Do you possibly have any friends or family that would be willing to have a sleepover with you?

 

A lot of people preach that the silent treatment is abuse and a huge red flag. And in some ways, I heavily agree. Silence should never be done intentionally, especially to punish or to hurt someone. That kind of behaviour can severely damage someone mentally and if you're having suicidal thoughts, that can make it even worse