SmolxBunneh Posted October 27, 2019 Report Posted October 27, 2019 Ano.. This may be in the wrong category >//w//<Sowweh if it is!I know I have been gone awhile, so here is an update of where I have been. House Searching: I entered the shark infested waters of real estate rentals and began my search for a cute little house. Which I found by luck about a week and a half later. I applied, and got it straight away!The Move: I finally moved out of my parent’s house!It’s been really scary but at the same time It has also been really exciting!It’s just me and my 11 year old kitty cat at the moment, in our little house. I do like the freedom, but sometimes it gets super hard because I miss my parents heaps! Even though they live two blocks away >_<I am going to be getting a roommate soon though, as soon as my anxiety lets me get used to the idea of a stranger living with me.DADDY: I met my daddy in person for the first time about a month ago n//n It was amazing! I was able to be in little space around him and felt super comfortable ^^Im hoping to see him again soon, hopefully around Christmas if he’s able to get some time off.Health: I was really sick this past month and a half. I caught a throat infection (which at the time I thought was just the flu). I got it from my parents after they got home from their month trip to Scotland. So I was on bed rest, antibiotics and pain killers. Ive still not fully recovered but Im alot better now then I was several weeks ago. Since then I have had several needles, which I am non to pleased with.But otherwise life has been busy! Between working 32 - 36hr weeks, and struggling with my anxiety and having insomnia. Ive barely been able to have any little time lately. But Im hoping to try and change that, maybe change my sleeping schedule ^^'Sorry this was soo long!SmolxBunneh~ <3 1
LittleGirlEmilia Posted October 27, 2019 Report Posted October 27, 2019 I currently have an infection and live in Scotland .-. I think there's something going around >.> Welcome back!
Guest Sunshinekitty Posted October 27, 2019 Report Posted October 27, 2019 And congratulations on your move.
Guest Sweetbottoms Posted October 29, 2019 Report Posted October 29, 2019 Wow a house is a big deal. Wish I had a house. I hope you both are better by now I too and sick. Congratulations on the house. I have had illnesses since summer all the way to now just one illness after another after another and after another I'm starting to think that I have cancer or something. sorry for the dark joke I probably don't have it but I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow for the first time. I waited a long time because you know within a week I got better but then in the middle of the week something new came up and at one time I had injured myself by stretching so I'm just a hot mess. My life has been turned upside down a few times.lots of baggage here but it can't be helped. I am all alone and I'm doing this all alone but with God's help. I have a husband and I am married and he has taken this marriage for granted and controlled me for many many years (domestically abused) he used mind games threats and physical violence, mean continuous verbal and mental abuse. He threatened divorce for years and years and years. A month-and-a-half ago I got tired of this and was getting physically ill because of it. My body was failing me. So when he said he was dead serious about leaving me and kicking me out of the house and divorcing me I said yes I want a divorce. I can always go to the homeless shelter and get free housing and all I have to do is say I am a domestic abuse case my husband has kicked me out of the house and get the police involved.now for all the times he has threatened to end divorce he never meant what he said but for some strange reason it has always give me bad anxiety and it just messed with me badly. I felt like this was an abusive marriage merry go round that kept going and going and going. he's the type of person now that will say something very mean nasty and scary cuz he believes that he has me trained I would behave myself and believe what he says, he was withdrawing from the divorce agreement. And then it got to the point where he says that he wants me to stay. then he tried to force me to stay married to him by lecturing me for 3 hours on why he wants me to stay with him and of course I told them that's my decision it's not yours. For once I stood up for myself thanks to my therapist and group friends. So I told him when I commit to something and when I said I'm going to do something like a divorce for example which is not taken lightly I follow through and I keep this commitment and I will stick to my guns and not changed my mind. Merry-Go-Round is over. It will never run ever again. So long story short my husband still wants me to stay and regrets how he treated me the past 10 years of our marriage. So he is getting guidance and counseling from our pastor I am also separately getting guidance from my pastor as well. I'm Christian and according to you know my belief God hates divorce. But when it comes to abusive situations God doesn't want his children to suffer abusive situation and if you're being abused in a relationship that means the abuser doesn't truly love you and it also means that you are free to leave because they're the ones who left the relationship first according to their behavior and spirit and how they treat others. So I know that I can leave for sure and not feel guilty about it. I also know that I have not sinned. I was even concerned about my daughter's well-being when it comes to leaving a marriage but her witnessing the abuse is just not worth it I would rather leave then have her watch day in Day out this abusive merry Go round. so that's my update I'm just trying to get physically healthy my mental state is great but my physical is just awful. Sorry for the sad updates but when it comes to rock bottom the only way out of the rock bottom is up
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