OMA Life is heavy

[Papa O'Toirneach 2]

Gods above, life is so difficult. I am not the only one with problems, that I understand, and mine aren't all that big, and I probably come across as a massive whingebag right now but I really needed to vent this and I'm NGL this is one of the few places I feel unjudged.

 

I've been seriously down for months and months due to some harsh personal reasons and I just felt like a useless waste of space for a long time, and every time I finally start to fix things, fix myself, I iind some way to mess things up. Every. Single. Time.

 

It's like I have this subconscious need to self-sabotage whether it comes to money, love, my family. Everything.

 

I'm such a screw up it physically hurts.

 

I just want to do better but can't even find a way to motivate myself, I've just recently found a new place to stay and I want to move on from my own issues but I'm so paranoid I'm gonna hurt myself again that I don't know what to do with myself.

 

Genuinely sorry about posting this, thank you for your time anyone reading this.

 

Love and Light

[Guest Sugarsnap]

Sharing is brave. At times we need to find outside support. Sometimes we move sideways or backwards and that's okay.

 

There are lots of good internet resources for crisis moments. Some hotlines are even text/chat based. Don't be scared to reach out to those folks when you need it.