Allowing myself to be proud

[JustSendIt28]

Excuse the rambling here but I feel the need to talk about this! 

 

As a rule I've always been hard on myself, never let myself feel proud of my accomplishments and never seek attention for any attempt at being a good person I make. I keep myself to myself and the people that know me but this is something I'm damn proud of and something I thought would never happen so indulge me for a few minutes! 

 

9 years ago when I was training to be an athlete of sorts I had a terrible bike accident that resulted in me having my knee basically packed full of metal, years later the metal got taken out but my knee was weak and I had a limp. I was told that I would likely not be able to exercise my knee too much ever again without risk of causing further damage to it which meant no running. I was utterly devastated, slipped into depression and put on a tonne of weight... I shot up from 11 stone to 18 stone in what felt like an instant... A few more years later an I'm almost developing an addition to caffeine drinking 4 cans of Monster Energy and 2 mugs of strong coffee per day, I lost my girlfriend at the time and I lost my job and I hit rock bottom. 

 

I decided to do something about it, I saw a physiotherapist who (after much convincing) agreed to put my on a physio program to try and get strength back into my knee, I went to University and carried on the program in private, every night in my bedroom, doing these knee exercises before bed. Slowly adding a bit more to it and slowly starting to feel my knee get stronger again. Anyway, fast forward through Uni and my knee is feeling so much better, I move away from home to a new city with a new career in mind and first thing I do upon getting here is seeing a doctor to take a look at my knee. I explained my situation to him and he booked me in for a few scans, got my to do a few exercises in front of him and he poked and prodded at my knee for a while before finally telling me that I should be able to get back to exercising properly and running properly again. 

 

Today, about an hour ago, I did my first run in 9 years. I'm knackered, I could barely control my breathing and could only manage 3.5km before my legs felt tired but I've never been more proud of myself than I am right now. To say that I feel emotional is an understatement. 

 

Happy daddy is happy. - Ok I'm done now 

[XSnowXWhiteX]

Good for you! In a different way I can fully understand this. Even the smallest achievements must be celebrated.

 

So glad your turning things around and feeling good about yourself. Keep it up!

[MylovesPrincess]

I know what it is like to get back on the exercise horse after an injury, and after a lot of weight gain. Good job!!!

[MysticSand]

Congratulations!!!! That's an amazing story. I'm sure it wasn't easy to pull yourself out of depression so super kudos to you for aspiring again and finding fulfillment once again. Woo woo! *confetti*

[grassgal]

Way to go!  *cheers wildly*

[popcornbaby]

That is absolutely fantastic!!! You are on the right path, its just a slow process sometimes. You seem to be in the right mindset right now, so even better things will come each day.

I recommend the Couch to 5K app, my ex daddy has made incredible progress with this and is becoming who he wants to be. You are doing amazing, keep going! Never give up!

[Purinsesu]

That is amazing news! I am so soooo happy for you!

It's very inspiring reading your journey and how you chose to not give up after all you've been through. At the end I had a huge smile on my face just reading it!

Keep up the good work! 

[BabyMattDiapers]

Wow thank you for sharing and that is so awesome and inspiring to hear! You have come such a long way and worked so hard for so long you deserve to be as proud of what you have done as you want to be! Great job and keep going you are doing great and wonderful things every day!

[Guest Daddy-Tom]

Great job! We are so proud of you! My elbows have been messed up with tendonitis for a while and I've been discouraged to see my curling ability drop but this gives me hope

[Ricobun]

That's truly wonderful. I'm glad you're proud! You should be! I'm very happy for you.