help a little out lol

[kitten_bean]

im a little who pretty much needs a cg 24/7. i have dependant personality disorder so i depend on others for almost everything. i dont have a cg right now but my best friend kind of acts as one for me. i doubt he would want to become a full time cg for me and the only other cg ive met is my now ex who was a bit manipulative and a bit abusive. ive talked to her since the breakup and it seems that shes changed. i never really lost feelings for her, just broke up cause friends told me she was bad. im not sure what i should do. should i continue to look for a cg or should i try to reach out to my old one or maybe talk to my friend about being a platonic caregiver of mine? i really dont know what to do and my little brain cant decide what to do. someone help? 

[xBabydollx]

It sounds like good reasons to have broken up. It's also interesting that u kinda downplay everything bad to a 'bit' so Idk. Maybe they did change. Maybe not. Actions speak louder than words. Only u can say if u want to go down that road again, but I personally wouldn't. As for ur friend, it doesn't hurt to ask. Worst they can say is no. Idk much about that disorder, but hopefully there are things u can do to cope on ur own because there is always going to be times in life when there is nobody to lean on and I think it would be great to wait for the "right" caregiver vs settling for whoever is available etc. Hopefully whatever decision u make works out for u.

[LittleTeacup]

You could ask your friend.

 

You could also talk to a psychologist (maybe the one who diagnosed you) and see if you can get a professional caregiver, like one for disabled people. I don't know if in Canada you would have to pay for them yourself or the state will pay if you have a diagnosis. Because even in the cg/l world, caregivers can't be "on" 24/7. They have to go to work, they may have family obligations, they may get sick and need rest time, etc. If you truly need someone to take care of your needs 24/7, I would strongly consider a professional. Then you could look for a partner without feeling like you have to pick the first one that comes along to meet your dependency needs.