Struggles

[Guest DaddysLittleCupcake]

I don’t usually post but tonight I’m having a hard night. I love my Daddy more than anything in this world. Tonight though with all these new hormones I guess, I’m kind of in a sense falling out of sync with him. I usually listen and maybe a tad bit of attitude every once in a while...But tonight it seems all I wanna do is disrespect him and argue and be a complete brat. He apologized to me even though he did nothing wrong to me...it was my fault. I know I should be talking to him about this but right now I just need to vent in a sense I guess. I’ll probably sleep on it and see how I feel tomorrow and then approach it so I’m not stressing myself over it cause sleep deprivation and everything going on inside me could very well be the cause. But I HATE BEING THIS WAY TO HIM. I’ve yelled, I’ve mocked him, I’ve told him to shut up...I even kept telling him goodnight and to leave me alone. I hope he doesn’t get the feeling I don’t want him anymore cause it’s not true. I’m just struggling I guess. When your Daddy is also your husband and your entire heart soul and world all you wanna do is love them and not do this but I can’t get rid of feeling irritated tonight. Any advice would be much appreciated.

 

Sincerely,

 

A little in the middle of a melt down.

[Lola Step]

I get into these moods sometimes too, heck even my Daddy does sometimes. Something I've found is that it's best to disclose this feeling as soon as you start feeling it, the sooner your Daddy has a heads up the less likely he is to get mad at you or feel hurt, even just a simple "Hey Daddy I'm feeling a bit grumpy tonight" will be enough to forward him, he may even be able to help head it off and cheer you up

[Guest TheShadow]

Hey,

 

He might be more understanding than you think. Saying you are acting out and annoyed might help. Sure, it doesn't really help after you've done the dead but a heads up might have been better. If I were you, I'd just say I need some space to avoid hurting people I care about. Then reach out once I feel better. But then again it all depends on how your relationship is and what kind of person he is. You should call him say you are sorry and explain why it happened and promise to make up for the mistakes you've done. But I do agree with Lola. Saying it before helps a lot.

[Guest DaddysLittleCupcake]

Thanks guys. I do need to get better at communicating how I’m feeling but the down side is I’m severely Bipolar and other things so it’s really hard pinpointing an emotion when it can change at the snap of a finger. I feel more like a nuisance right now. I’m sure I’ll change my mind once I can sleep. Right now I’m letting Daddy sleep since he stays up all night to make sure his night owl is okay. He really is very understanding and loving and we have talked about this but I still feel so bad about it so I asked for punishment so it can be a reminder to open up and talk to him and not put it off.

[Guest TheShadow]

Hey, it's good that you realized but in my opinion you should not be asking for punishment. Do something nice to show that you are sorry for him and in case he gives you a punishment, go for it. However you suggesting it isn't something I'd recommend. And trust me you aren't just a nuisance. Don't let one aspect of who your are be the definition of who you are. I'm sure you DD would do the same