Am I a Little?

[little1grl]

Recently, I've started wondering if I'm a little. The main thing that makes me wonder is that, whenever I get really submissive at all around my Sir, I start talking in a child-like voice. I don't try, it just happens and I can't really help it either. I've been like this for several years. (Since I started living with my Sir. My Sir is my first Sir...)

Recently I've also started sleeping with a stuffed animal. I wanted to bring my stuffie around the house too,  but my Sir didn't like that. So I stopped doing it, and it's made me really sad.

I've been trying for the past couple years to do a Master/slave relationship with my Sir- and not really succeeding at that. Mostly because I push back when he gives an order....not in a bratty way, but I'm not saying "yes sir" and complying immediately either. (When I realize I'm pushing back, I stop immediately, but I'm not always aware I'm doing it). However that's not really acceptable in an M/s dynamic. I wonder if it is in dd/lg? It's also something I can't seem to help. So what we have currently is some kind of hybrid between M/s and something else. We do have some power exchange, but I don't seem to be able to grasp or get into the mindset of a slave most of the time.

I'm not really into cartoons though (other than anime...but some anime I like is definitely adult since I don't shy away from violence), and I'm not really into child-like activities/shows.  I like games a lot, but not necessarily kid games. (More like Settlers of Catan, over games like Sorry). But I prefer to watch adult stuff and do adult activities. I don't want to color either, mainly because I'm an artist so I can make things look really good, so I'd rather do that. I'd feel bad if I didn't try to draw well. (Though playing with colored glitter glue might be fun). Recently I've been playing a little with my stuffie though, but I don't know if I could do it for long. I do get bored very easily. 

I like going to Disney World, but again I shy away from the child-like stuff. Though I do wonder if I'd enjoy kids stuff more if I got into "little space". (I assume thats the space I get into when I talk in a child-ish voice). I have also been in diapers before and I've liked that though. Even though if I'm a little, I'm probably more around 6.

I wonder if dd/lg would  be preferable to being a slave. It seems to have all the good parts (nurturing, guidance, control) without any of the harshness. On the other hand, sometimes the harshness of slavery seems appealing. I'm not crazy into serving though... I like it a little bit but I don't like it in an extreme way. (But I do like making my Sir breakfast).

I also don't really get turned on by ageplay stuff. I get turned on by control a lot, (the more the better) so in some ways M/s seems like more of a turn on. But, emotionally I have started feeling really drawn to dd/lg stuff.

It's kind of a mute point, though, because I really want to stay with my Sir and he wants a slave, not a little. But still I want to know for myself, if I'm really a little, or maybe a mix between a little and a slave.

I also don't want to jump the gun... I tend to get attracted to shiny things and after awhile I lose interest when the novelty wears off. So I don't know if this is one of those things, or if I'm just thinking the grass is greener on the other side.

[Guest You're adorable]

Well, 

 

I wonder why is there always a need to put who you are on what kind of relationship you are in in some kind of box. Whatever works for you works for you. It's as simple as that. Just because some things you like are common among the things Littles like, that doesn't mean you also have to like everything else around that because now that you think you are a Little, it should be mandatory for you to like these things as well.

 

Being a little donesn't exclude being a slave and vice versa. I would dare anyone to show me a textbook little or a textbook slave if such thing even exists. It all comes down to your own preferences and what you feel is right for you.

 

If you have a stable and a working relationship, it doesn't matter what it's called. And whenever something doesn't work is not because you misidentified the dynamic. Just because you start calling your relationship DDlg will not magically solve everything. A name is just a name.

 

In the end it's up to 2 adult people in the relationship to decide in what way they want the relationship to go and what are their relationship goals. And changing labels from one to another will not do that for you.

Edited January 25, 2019 by You're adorable

[Guest Daddy-D]

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Edited February 2, 2019 by Daddy-D

[LittleTeacup]

You might be, you might not be. Only you can make that decision.

 

Not all littles like the same things. You don't have to watch or like every cartoon (I don't - I prefer reading to tv). You don't have to like to color or play certain kid games. Just like what you like. It's ok.

 

You also don't have to be little 24/7. Most littles aren't. Maybe you could be a slave most of the time, but sometimes you could express your little side. Talk about it with your master. You could also combine it and be a little slave!

[little1grl]

Well then I feel like I'm a little. And a slave too. I'm not sure how much I will get to express my little side with my Sir, but I still feel like a little.

[BigDaddy72]

It sounds like you are definitely a little and there is nothing wrong with it. I hid what I am (DD) and have been miserable...I’ve embraced it more openly...in the right places and find I’m happier as a result. It’s not easy to find both real and long term though...

[Vanilla]

It was only confirmed to me recently by my Daddy that I was little, but before then all I knew was at times I felt little. I guess, do you feel little? If so, then I'd say you're most likely a little.

 

Sure, I enjoy colouring, cuddle my teddies when I'm sad, and pout when I get what I want, but there's some things I know I wouldn't like like actually using a diaper, and that's okay, because all littles don't have to like the same things, we all little in our own way.

 

I also want to add, you don't just have to be a little. You can be a little and a kitten, a little and a slave, a little, kitten and a slave, any combination of things. You don't have to be all of them at the same time either.

Edited January 27, 2019 by Vanilla

[little1grl]

Well, I talked to my Sir about it, and when we go to Disney World apparently even then, I act like a little. (We live in Florida and have annual passes so we go a lot. Its actually less expensive to get annual passes for Florida residents than it is to go to Disney for 4 days).

I didn't know that I was like that but he said I definitely do act that way. So I guess I do feel little a lot. Especially in certain circumstances. But apparently I act little even when I don't realize it.

I think I might be slightly bratty too, (but not intentionally) which isn't working too well with being a slave. Not sure what to do about that. My Sir isn't particularly interested in a little for himself, (he wants a slave) but he seems to be ok with me expressing my little side.

 

I'm still trying to figure this all out. I want to explore this side of me a little more (haha) but I'm not sure how.