I'm nervous

[Shadow]

Soo... this is kinda a long story but I'm gonna skip to the important parts.

 

So my boyfriend and I have been together for a year and 6 months now and we were homeless for a while. During that time he got arrested and I was alone on the streets. I slept in a tent hidden in the bushes and developed a rash all over my body from the bushes that I was near.

 

I currently stay with my sister and he gets out of jail next week. He hasn't seen my body since I got the rash and I'm afraid he's not going to be as attracted to me as before. Also, I recently started embracing my little side (which he hasn't seen much of) and I'm nervous he's going to think I'm stupid or something.

 

I need advice. Someone please help me (/.\)

[Alaskan Daddy]

I am going to give you something else to think about. Your BF is very lucky that you stuck by him as he went to jail. You accepted him for who he is, struggles and all.

I understand the feelings you are having about him maybe not accepting you for you are. He may not understand your 'little side' but he does have the privilege to reject you in any way, especially since you have stood by him the way you have.

If he does reject you for the rash or for you being a little, then you know everything you need to know about him. Remember your feelings are just as important as his. You sound like a strong person who does not need someone in your life who does not uplift you.

I hope this helps.

[Alaskan Daddy]

sorry,' he does NOT have the privilege to reject you'

[TheTexanDaddy]

As a man, I would feel like you having the rash was my fault for not providing. Also, I would be worried about making you better, not about how the rash looks on you. As for bringing up littlespace, if he can't accept it, he's not the one for you. Be brave. Tough times have made you stronger.

[MasterPhotog]

In addition to great advice from Alaskan Daddy and Texan Daddy, I would just add that if he doesn't accept you just the way you're, he doesn't deserve you, period.
For you to stick by him while risking your life and waiting for him for six months speaks greatly about your love and dedication for him.

If he can't see or value your love and dedication and is going to reject you due to you having rash or due to you being a little, he is a very unfortunate man.
However, I'm hoping that he is a better person and sees what an amazing individual you're. Good luck and best wishes! 

[Funeral]

I hope this all works out for you. Being vulnerable is not easy if you're worried that they may not be very accepting of a part of you. 

[Inmylittlespace]

Have you seen a doctor about the rash from the foliage you developed? There is most likely something you can take to help with that. 
I wouldn't worry about your little side right now and instead worry about creating a stable home environment for the two of you, but he's going to have a very heavy adjustment coming into the real world. You can always bring your little side into things, showing him stuff of course, but making a stable life is most important if you guys want to be together. 

[LittleCelticLass]

I'm going to add that if you are longer exposed to the foliage, the rash should go away. If it's not, then defiantly see a doctor, it may be something else, like stress.

Best of luck to you.

[hurtnolivingthing]

Hello Shadow

 

I hope you've seen someone about the rash. Hopefully it will disappear with a little time, now you are no longer exposed to those bushes.

 

I'm sorry you went through so much already, and still have difficulties to face.

Can you stay with your sister for at least a while longer ? As has already been said.. you need to be most concerned

with making sure you are in a stable home environment.

 

Your boyfriend is very lucky that you are waiting for him. If he rejects you because of a rash, he really is no good for you.

I'm not sure he is good for you anyway. Sorry to say that.

If you do reveal your little-self to him, and he makes you feel bad about it; he really is no good for you.

 

Right now, worry more about yourself, please. Get care for the rash if needed, and concentrate on establishing a permanent safe home.

 

I hope things do work out for you and your boyfriend.

But don't hang onto him if he's not worth it.  You sound like you're a lovely person. You deserve someone lovely too who appreciates how special you are.

 

Very best wishes and good luck with everything.

[Shadow]

Thank you to everyone for your support. Yes, I did go to the hospital to get it checked out and they couldn't do much since I don't have ensurance. They told me to buy a cream from rite aid and put it on everyday and keep my skin moisturized. I did that and nothing changed so I started using aloe vera and that's slowly but surely working. I need more tho.

Also, you guys are absolutely right. A stable home is my main focus, I just know what I need to do to get to where I need to go so I don't necessarily need advice on that. However, I don't have someone irl to talk to about this sort of stuff which is why I joined this forum. But thank you for your concerns