he doesnt seriously care (trigger warning)

[that_little.kitten]

ive been feeling suicidal for a few days again i tried telling my caregiver about this, but he totally ignored it

 

im a little with severe depression, anxiety, and bpd, and ive been more scared and moody recently as well, and hes only been getting mad at me for it and its pushed me more into the suicidal feeling but i really dont want ot hurt him by taking my own life and now i really dont know what to do, im really sorry for this post its just something thats bothering me

[ThePlushiePrincess]

Hey, I'm sorry you've been feeling like this. I struggle with some of those issues too, so I know how tough it can get. It doesn't seem fair that he gets mad at you for it. Maybe it's just me but I feel like he should be loving and caring and try and help you through those feelings. 

 

Please don't be sorry. You're hurting and it's obviously important to you. Reaching out for help is a good thing! So good job on that front. 

 

I'm sending you ALL the virtual hugs! 

[Guest LittleMapleBear]

Hello there!

 

Is it possible that your CG does care, but he’s perhaps not equipped to deal with your feelings and thoughts?

 

Do you have a professional team to turn to? Perhaps your CG can take you to an appointment or to the hospital if you’re feeling like suicide is your only option.

 

This may be something that has your CG feeling over his head - and something you need professional help with. Do you want the information for your local crisis team? How can folks best help you?

[Guest Arc]

I'm truely sorry you are going through this, and I am sorry your cg is less than supportive during this time. He may feel like he cannot help you and is feeling frustrated by his inability to help. Some people get frustrated when they feel helpless, however getting mad is not okay. He could have found a better way to express himself and I am sorry you have been hurt by this. 

 

Perhaps you have friends or family you could try reach out to for support? Or even a local crisis hotline or even hospital if you require that right now. You've already tried to ask for help from your cg and that is such a hard thing so I know you're strong enough to try again. Don't stop trying to get help because it is obvious that you want it. 

 

Take care x 

[Guest Mr.Stuffykins]

There are many things at play here that worry me - immensely.

 

First and foremost? I want you to surround yourself with friends and family - people that will reassure and support you. For the time being I suggest, mentally, keeping your distance from your CG because it is blatantly obvious that he does not have the appropriate mindset to handle the situation. So instead of hoping for a positive reaction, and getting hurt, I recommend keeping your distance. Attempting to remedy his behavior could take time! I personally don't want to see you putting so much dedication, in your current state, when he is the one that should be attempting to do better. Right now you need to focus on YOU. YOU need to do things and be with people that bring positivity in your life. With this I'm not saying you should leave him. I'm simply saying that at this time you can't rely on him. When your emotional state has bettered you must go to him and address all of this! You can't go on prioritizing his feelings over yours " I dont want ot hurt him by taking my own life" this worries me more than you know because it shows you aren't valuing your own life. Whatever problems you're facing or have faced you must always remember that there will be people to support you. Don't ever be afraid to express your feelings, thoughts, and concerns okay? They and you are important so don't ever apologize for that.

 

If you ever need anyone to talk to always remember that my door is open.

 

Stay safe and take Care

Edited July 9, 2018 by Mr.Stuffykins

[Guest Arc]

Here are some resources that may help. 

 

The USA suicide hotline is 1-800-784-8433

 

I saw one of your previous posts mentioned you are in Georgia. The number for the Georgia Crisis and Access line is 1-800-715-4225. 

 

There's also an online chat if you would prefer that. https://www.contact-usa.org/chat.html

[SilentType]

Are you getting professional help such as therapy? I had an ex sub who also had some mental health issues. Of course I did my best to talk things through, and try to be encouraging but when you're not a professional it can be close to impossible to make any significant meaningful difference

[that_little.kitten]

thanks, i have been going to therapy but it hasnt been making anything much better, but now at least i dont have to worry about how my cg feels because he left me over this earlier this morning and expressed that he didnt love or care enough to help me through this again, but thank you for the support im going to take the advice and get closer to the people who care and help me, thank you, also thank you for the crisis line information

[Quirkygrl16]

I also have some similar issues that you go through. If you ever want to talk dont hesitate to add me.. I'm sorry you have to deal with this alone