"All these thoughts running through my brain"

[BBGSam99]

I woke up to a bunch of missed calls
Some texts asking if I’d heard the news
My heart dropped, I knew something was off
But why did it have to be about you?
I didn’t wanna believe that it was true
Maybe I could’ve helped you with what you were going through
Cause I’ve been there myself, but it’s too late now
This is something that you can’t undo
I can only imagine all the pain
All these thoughts that are running through my brain
Like what if when we all saw sunshine maybe you saw rain
If you’d have just called me, man, I would’ve came
I could’ve told you life gets better
Told you I still considered you my friend
Told you the pain doesn’t last forever
Told you that I didn’t want your life to end
I wish I could’ve told you this in person
Called you up just to say hi
I really didn’t know that you were hurting
Now I just wish I could’ve said goodbye
I’m sorry that you saw no other option
I wish I could’ve been there or done something to stop it
But now I’ll only see you in your coffin
You might be gone but you’ll never be forgotten Josh..

 

-I've been thinking about this a lot. My brother's been gone for 2 years now, and anytime someone says his name I break down. I just can't help it.

 

[Guest MisterE]

Such a heartfelt poem. It seriously brought a tear to my eye.