fear

[buggyhockey1988]

As a little I have many fears, loud noises, fire, being alone, the dark, but my biggest fear is finding a new caregiver. Its been alittle over a year now since I had a daddy, I wanna find a new one but Im afraid, my last daddy was abusive, both sexually and emotionally. He would get me frunk and then do sexual stuff to me and then he would try to use the if you love me you will do as I say or, im your daddy you must do as I say or you will get punished, he would leave me alone for a long time and take away comfort items which he knows I need. He has made me fear of any caregiver. During the time without One I felt like I can make myself independent and that I dont need anyone, and I dont, but as life goes on I feel my anxiety getting worse and worse and I miss having a caregiver, I miss the comfort of having someone with me and telling me everything ok and not judging me for being in little space. 

 

I dont know how to get over this fear though, Evertime I think Im over it, panic sets in and I dont know how to stop it

[XmochiX]

I know how you feel. I have a severe anxiety disorder and am terrified of a lot of things. I think once you meet someone you truly like and want to be with, you will be willing to set your fears aside so that you can learn to trust them. That is what happened with me.

[Mikaitaku]

I know the feeling as well, my last relationship did not end well.

[Guest Babykitkat 23]