Anyone a secret little?

[teenytiny]

Nobody knows about my age regression, but people close to me do know about my childish quirks (lots of stuffies, kids toys in my room, looking/acting younger than my age). I have a boyfriend I've been with for about a year. I used to have a daddy kink with him where I'd call him daddy and he referred to himself as my daddy, but then he'd get insecure and he told me that it was "slutty" of me to do that. He's very possessive, controlling, overall jealous type - but he can be mean and call me a slut or whore when it's not true (makes me want to be a little even more ). 

 

I've dived into age regression more and more and now I'm always surrounded by baby toys I had as a child and about 100 stuffies. Recently he told me he thinks it's "different" or "weird" for my stuffy collection, which really hurt. 

 

My boyfriend is dominating and controlling, and sometimes abusive. He's over 200 lbs bigger than I am and nearly a foot taller than me - and unlike a lot of others, those things collectively turn me on a lot (sexually and emotionally). He's perfect "daddy" material, or dominating material in correlation to my littleness I guess, so I don't want to ruin it. If I were to tell him I age regress I don't know what he'd say or do, I say that out of fear, not in a "ooooo spank me daddy I've been naughty" kinda way. I'm genuinely scared, and it's not in a good way. 

 

 

Has anyone been in a similar situation? How did people react when you told them you're a little or you age regress? If and when you confessed, what did you say, how did you justify it to them?

Edited January 29, 2018 by teenytiny

[Mikaitaku]

abusive is never, never acceptable, that he is shows a clear defect in personality. You should not be made to feel as if you can not be true to yourself.

[Guest aphroditelaughs]

A Daddy can be dominating and controlling without being abusive. But you said it yourself - he's abusive. I obviously don't know your relationship or situation, but I'm concerned about your safety and well being. All the things you like about him and all your feelings and all the regression aside, if you are being abused then you need to look somewhere within yourself and get out. Domestic violence is progressive. There are resources for you on the internet and probably locally too. Edited January 29, 2018 by aphroditelaughs

[hufflepuffpony]

No one knows about my interest in the community(I'm new). My family does know about a lot of my childish quirks though and most of them can't stand it. They hate how many plushies I have(over a 100 of them are Build a bears), my disney movie collection. Pretty much everything about me they can't stand even things that. Even medically diagnosed things they fight me on that stuff all them. So yes I'm a hidden little and probably will be for a long time if not forever. My family wouldn't be able to handle it 

[meows kohai]

Girl, I have been with abusive men--including gangsters that threatened to kill me, my family, and my friends. 

You need to get away from him. Nothing good can come from this. 

Please, I implore you to get help if you can't get away from him on your own. Please add me if you need to talk.

What he is doing isn't right. A daddy isn't abusive. WILLING BDSM and degradation is one thing, but actual abusive is not conducive to a healthy relationship.

Edited January 29, 2018 by meows senpai

[izz]

You don't have to justify your age regression, or anything kink related, to anyone. Ever. It's a part of who you are and there is absolutely no shame in that. Additionally, a real daddy is never, ever abusive. There is a difference between domination and abuse and it seems that this guy violates that difference. Even if he isn't into ageplay/age regression, he has absolutely no right to judge you or make you feel bad about it. No daddy should make you feel scared to be honest and open about who you are. 

[Guest Mister Grey]

I read your post and was gong to comment, but seeing the many posts of the same thought there really is no need.

 

Please read and re-read the previous posts.

 

[Guest UnicornPuff]

I keep my Little self discreet but this is unhealthy. You are in an abusive situation.

[Aria]

I too was immediately concerned even before you said the word "abusive". That your first paragraph even has a sad emoji face is telling in itself, that this is something that *hurts* you, and doesn't make you feel loved, or safe, or even accepted.

Please please, get out of this situation. Even outside of kinking or WIITWD (What It Is That We Do) this isn't safe. He is making you feel ashamed and bad about yourself. That is *never* ever okay. That is not what Daddies, or even just plain Dominants do.

[Princess for cuck]

you have used the word "abusive" and although you have not said how that manifests itself, if your boyfriend is doing anything that you can interpret as "abusive" then your relationship is not a healthy one.  Further, you should never be afraid to discuss every aspect of who you are with your partner.  If you can't, or are worried what the reaction will be; then you are not with the right person.