DID and Being Little

[Guest Leilah]

Hi I'm Leilah on this forum, and I've decided to reach out to other littles like me who are not just ageplayers, but who have what is called DID, Disassociative Identity Disorder. 

 

I was diagnosed with DID when I was 15 yrs old and have struggled with this my whole life. Choosing this lifestyle has given me a way to express my little side, without prejudice, and I'm very grateful to this forum for making this a safe place for people like me to come and talk to other littles and bigs.

 

At first I was embarrassed to talk on chat too much because when I'm in my little space I loose time and I don't remember what happens.  This is a very hard thing to deal with, but the people here are very supportive.

 

I would like to reach out to other littles who have DID and let them know that there is somewhere that we can talk amongst ourselves and be in a safe environment.

 

Any little who would like to know more or wants to talk, please feel free to contact me.

 

I'm including a link about DID for those who want to learn more http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder

 

I am in no way qualified to answer questions about diagnosing mental health issues, this thread is only meant to be a way to share thoughts about littles and DID "like" symptoms.

 

Please feel free to share your thoughts 

[Ember Moons]

Hiya and welcome my ex (i was with him for 5 years) had DID :3 so i know how hard it is granted he was vanilla but I understand how having an outlet (for him it was martial arts) that helps you out Like Doodles said you are more then accepted here so just hope on in to the family

[A Cuddly Dom]

 I'm very proud that my girl has the courage to come forward and reach out to others, especially concerning such a sensitive topic. I'll throw in some info on my own experiences with DID, and then try to give some perspective for Bigs who may have a partner with this condition.

 

 From the time I was seventeen until I was about twenty five I had repeated bouts with DID. I would blackout, without any drugs or alcohol being involved, and would walk and talk, interacting with people as a completely different person. I thought I was going crazy. At one point, I had identified a total of five different personalities within my psyche. It passed with time, and I'm not exactly sure why it just seemed to stop all on its own when a lot of other people with this condition have it for life. It was really scary for me during my teen years, when I might lapse at any given time, wake up hours later in a totally different place, and have no recollection of what I had said or done in that time. It was made even more frightening for me because one of my personalities was extremely violent and sadistic. Over time, it seemed to fade. I would still feel another personality at work, but I could either observe what was going on, or I could even take the wheel back, so to speak. It's a bizarre and surreal kind of experience.

 

 DID is not something to be ashamed of, it's usually the mind's way of processing extreme trauma. If you find yourself in a relationship with someone who has symptoms of DID, the most important thing to remember is to be compassionate at all times. It will be difficult, there will be confusion, especially in the beginning of a relationship. As a Daddy/Mommy/Caregiver, it will be your responsibility to take your time and learn the different sides to your little. It takes time, care, patience, and a lot of love to build a relationship with someone living with this condition.

 

 If you have any questions about caring for a little/sub with DID, you may PM me and I will give the best advice that I can.

[Guest Leilah]

 I'm very proud that my girl has the courage to come forward and reach out to others, especially concerning such a sensitive topic. I'll throw in some info on my own experiences with DID, and then try to give some perspective for Bigs who may have a partner with this condition.

 

 From the time I was seventeen until I was about twenty five I had repeated bouts with DID. I would blackout, without any drugs or alcohol being involved, and would walk and talk, interacting with people as a completely different person. I thought I was going crazy. At one point, I had identified a total of five different personalities within my psyche. It passed with time, and I'm not exactly sure why it just seemed to stop all on its own when a lot of other people with this condition have it for life. It was really scary for me during my teen years, when I might lapse at any given time, wake up hours later in a totally different place, and have no recollection of what I had said or done in that time. It was made even more frightening for me because one of my personalities was extremely violent and sadistic. Over time, it seemed to fade. I would still feel another personality at work, but I could either observe what was going on, or I could even take the wheel back, so to speak. It's a bizarre and surreal kind of experience.

 

 DID is not something to be ashamed of, it's usually the mind's way of processing extreme trauma. If you find yourself in a relationship with someone who has symptoms of DID, the most important thing to remember is to be compassionate at all times. It will be difficult, there will be confusion, especially in the beginning of a relationship. As a Daddy/Mommy/Caregiver, it will be your responsibility to take your time and learn the different sides to your little. It takes time, care, patience, and a lot of love to build a relationship with someone living with this condition.

 

 If you have any questions about caring for a little/sub with DID, you may PM me and I will give the best advice that I can.

Thank you Daddy for being so supportive of us, we love you bunches and bunches.....

[Guest ADudeHasNoName]

I had a friend who kept a journal between all her alters. They would all know about the journal and write messages to each other. I thought that was a very smart way to make things a little less confusing in your body when switching between alts. I can understand how scarey it is! I tend to see it as making new friends within the same person. I'm glad you're open about it. Do you find that some of your alters are more violent or parotid than others? Or different ages?

[quietkitten]

I also have DID and I would have never had the bravery to reach out like you did so thank you 

[Guest Leilah]

Thanks to everyone for the support on this thread.  It's really great that we feel so safe here that we can really talk about important issues.  

[Guest Leilah]

I had a friend who kept a journal between all her alters. They would all know about the journal and write messages to each other. I thought that was a very smart way to make things a little less confusing in your body when switching between alts. I can understand how scarey it is! I tend to see it as making new friends within the same person. I'm glad you're open about it. Do you find that some of your alters are more violent or parotid than others? Or different ages?

I dont think they are violent, but they are different ages.  Journals and very good calendars are a good way to try to keep track.  Also Daddy helps with reminding me about things, that I often forget, and often asks, Did you eat today? 

[Beckie]

I think it's brave of you for telling us about this Leilah! I'm glad we are able to create a safe space for all members to be open about their struggles.

I agree that journals are helpful! They are awesome and I think everyone should have some form of one!!! (Great therapy actually!!!)

I am here anytime you need to talk Leilah!! (And plus 10 million to your daddy for being so supportive!)