Does Anyone Ever Wish their Little Side Would Die?

[LittleKitten13]

Does anyone else ever wish that their little side would die?  Not like...that they would die...but that their little side would just die, and they wouldn't be little anymore?  I know for some people, their littleness is ageplay, and it is an extremely vital part of their relationship....

For me, I'm little, and I can't help it or stop it...I can't just...not be little whenever I want or switch back and forth...I go into little space when...I guess when my brain decides I need to be little, and into big space whenever my brain decides it wants to be big...and I don't seem to have any control over it....

I love my little side a lot of the time...but I still wish my little side would die a lot of the time, because if I wasn't little, a lot of problems would be solved...I wouldn't be called immature, or worry about people making fun of me if I watch Sofia the First, or worrying about if someone finds my binkie collection...because I wouldn't have one....

I guess I was just wondering if I was alone or not....

[Mikaitaku]

I think I can understand where you are coming from, at least in part. but for me it is my wolf self, which I sometimes slip into when stressed and near breaking point, it being the emotional instinctive part of me tends to sometimes cause problems because act without thinking. For me it can help to acknowledge and try to better understand that part of me and try to retain enough human me to either snap out of it or guide it into doing something better. 

[LittleKitten13]

I think I can understand where you are coming from, at least in part. but for me it is my wolf self, which I sometimes slip into when stressed and near breaking point, it being the emotional instinctive part of me tends to sometimes cause problems because act without thinking. For me it can help to acknowledge and try to better understand that part of me and try to retain enough human me to either snap out of it or guide it into doing something better. 

I try to stop being little...but it just sends me into an anxiety attack....  I have mostly three modes when I'm little.  Playful, cuddly/sleepy, and scared....  If I'm playful, I can kinda guide myself to being more big in my playfulness (not always), but cuddly/sleepy are MUCH harder, because all I wanna do is cuddle papa and sleep in his lap, and when I'm scared there's no way I could ever snap out of it....

[Guest Arc]

Stop thinking it would be easier if that side died, and start working on being able to control it. Thinking the way you are isn't going to make things any easier. 

 

You don't have to give up your little side. You can still be fun and playful and cuddly. A lot of people's personality's are like that. So you don't even really have to control it; just learn how to tone it back to make it appropriate for the situation. 

 

Either way, don't say you think you want it to die. Things are easier to accomplish if you aren't thinking so negatively about them. 

[Guest SUeB]

Nope. It's my innocent, joyful, trusting side. It's the wide eyed "look how pretty the moon is!!" side.

But i am a 46 year old mother of three who is developing my own business, pays the bills, runs a household and has to function in the real world. i just get on with it. The more serious lg side is just reserved for Daddy. If i walked around like that all day long i would end up in a lot of trouble.

[Guest infinitecases]

I think it's normal to feel like that - have you tried any ways to control it? I feel like the way you do a lot, even though I have 'more' control over my little side. My Daddy says I am always little, so I am always slightly childish/excitable when I talk about things but I know when is appropriate and when it's not, so I have no real problem being 'big' or not feeling little whatsoever. I feel the way you do when people ridicule me and I am always anxious of people laughing at me or talking about me behind my back, so I always wish I was less little, more confident and less feeling.... but you can't change the way you are - my little side is what keeps me happy and when people insult me, I try to see the best of things and use my little side to see the bright side of things, otherwise I'd probably drown in hatred and sadness at this point. 

 

Your little activities are what makes you happy! It's so easy to wish that that side of you would die off, I sometimes wish I was different and not so little and worry about whether Daddy likes it, but at the end of the day, don't try to mould yourself to what other people laugh at you for and be yourself. Society shouldn't determine how you are as a person. If you're happy being little, stay little - otherwise you're letting other people take away the things that give meaning to your life. 

[Rebel]

I can't speak about being little or nothing like that, but I can use other things in my life as an example. 

 

I love riding motorcycles, but fairly recently got in two bike wrecks. I could say I wish I didn't love riding bikes but I do, and those two wrecks ain't gonna stop me. I could also say the same for history and civil war reenacting, as they basically paint a target on my back. Am I gonna stop em? No, because again I love doing them too much.

 

So I don't think you should be asking whether you wish the little side of you would "die", but rather how do you persevere with your little side being as it is. 

[LittleKitten13]

I can't speak about being little or nothing like that, but I can use other things in my life as an example. 

 

I love riding motorcycles, but fairly recently got in two bike wrecks. I could say I wish I didn't love riding bikes but I do, and those two wrecks ain't gonna stop me. I could also say the same for history and civil war reenacting, as they basically paint a target on my back. Am I gonna stop em? No, because again I love doing them too much.

 

So I don't think you should be asking whether you wish the little side of you would "die", but rather how do you persevere with your little side being as it is. 

That's actually kind of helpful.  I do wish my little side would change and/or I knew how to control it....

[Rebel]

That's actually kind of helpful.  I do wish my little side would change and/or I knew how to control it....

 

That'll take time if you want to learn how to change it or control it. But I mean honestly I wouldn't (if I were in your position). I live by what I have as my signature: "Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a ride!" Now at first glance it seems like its just saying don't be afraid to take risks, and it is. But if you really think about it, its basically saying do what you want and don't be afraid. If people don't like your little side, well then they can (excuse my french) fuck off. 

This is your life, live it how you want. 

[LittleKitten13]

That'll take time if you want to learn how to change it or control it. But I mean honestly I wouldn't (if I were in your position). I live by what I have as my signature: "Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a ride!" Now at first glance it seems like its just saying don't be afraid to take risks, and it is. But if you really think about it, its basically saying do what you want and don't be afraid. If people don't like your little side, well then they can (excuse my french) fuck off. 

This is your life, live it how you want. 

You're really nice, Rebel.

[Rebel]

You're really nice, Rebel.

 

Well thank you, and I hope I helped some. 

[Insanity_Stars_Birdie]

Yeah I mean I love it and all but sometimes it just gets in the way especially at school when I'm stressed.

[Guest ParanoidAsylum]

I used to, now not as much, because I forced control over my spaces the hard way.

[LittleKitten13]

I used to, now not as much, because I forced control over my spaces the hard way.

How do you do that?

[fatyknowsnothing]

I kinda know the feeling. When i'm stressed out or in a panic or having an argument, i can't control my tears. I feel like the biggest cry baby ever. Tried so hard to shut it but i kept tearing. I really wish i can control it cz it's mentally exhaustinf.

Hope everyone who feel the same can find a way to handle it.

[SpaceWhiskers]

Personally I can understand, It wasn't until fairly recently that I realized being a little was a thing. I personally been this way for awhile just never knew it was a thing. For the longest time I hated it because I didn't understand it and being told to grow up I just always suppressed it. But it never truly went away I would always get uncontrollable spurts from time to time that would only made me fell worst in the end.

 

Now that I am starting to understand it more and letting it shine and let me be me, I have been a lot happier. Now granted my adult side still loves to stay in control alot and that gets annoying sometimes.

 

But I guess I can say don't be ashamed of who you are, you will be more happier from the experience and surround yourself with the right people. As my friends may not be littles but that understand and let me be me.

 

But as for as controlling it that I hard to say as everyone it different. Being ashamed of it and confused it wasn't hard for me to try to act my age until it just became routine.

Edited October 10, 2017 by SpaceWhiskers

[TinyBoysInLove]

I can understand what you mean as sometimes I feel the same. I sometimes know I have to be big but I cant make my littleness actually go away I have a really hard time controlling it, I fear this may be because its so deeply intertwined with my bipolar disorder.

 

Whilst most of the time I like to be little and it does make me happy and give me an escape, sometimes I do wish it was easier to control for me.