Nervous...

[Guest -sugarbear-]

My Daddy and I are in a long-term, long distance relationship together. It's been almost two years and we love each other immensely.

 

We visit each other every few months (mostly according to his work schedule or my own; money is not an issue or problem, it mostly revolves around time) and we're looking into visa options together (either to bring him here to Australia or send me to the US... or eventually marriage when I feel ready).

 

I haven't seen him since May and in between our visits I've been hospitalised several times (one of which involved surgery and now I have a huge, permanent scar). I've been weak and lonely and it's been very hard for me to try and get into being little without him...

 

He's showing up from the US tomorrow for a few weeks and I have no idea of how to be little... I feel like I've forgotten and I'm afraid I might not be able to be small around him. 

 

I want to be little. I want my Daddy. I want to be comforted.

 

Wearing my pull-ups doesn't help, hugging my stuffies barely helps.

 

I haven't been able to get into little space and I'm nervous that things might be different or that he'll be upset or disappointed in me or that I won't be able to relax and let go for him because I've been so sick and tired. I'm so exhausted and still recovering from my last surgery three weeks ago... what if he doesn't like my scars, or gets bored with me...?

 

I don't know. It's 3am and I can't sleep... 

[kungmaster]

It sounds like you have a very intense connection. You are lucky!

 

I'm sure your Daddy has a depth of love for you that transcends distance.

 

If you calm your nerves and look in your heart, I'll bet you can feel his love.

[Guest -sugarbear-]

It sounds like you have a very intense connection. You are lucky!

 

I'm sure your Daddy has a depth of love for you that transcends distance.

 

If you calm your nerves and look in your heart, I'll bet you can feel his love.

 

 

Things turned out just fine.

 

You were right. Thank you. <3

[kungmaster]

Thanks for following up.

 

I am glad things worked out.