Guest hoshi Posted June 3, 2017 Report Posted June 3, 2017 I always thought I only like only ddlg because I'm kinda needy and I like cute stuff, etc. But then I found a beautiful kitty and well, here I am. Problem is... lately he not trying to catch my attention like at first (The other day he told me he didn't get the notification... it made me think that he lost interest) and then I am always trying to get his attention... even we are in LDR he doesn't call because at first he said he is too shy to do it (but he goes sexual at times by phone...). So I always call or propose to do calls. One day, finally he told me he will call before I sleep to give me a good dream but then..., I found myself waiting like an idiot in the middle of the night, I got mad. I told him but I felt bad because anyways it was my choose to wait until late, right...? But I love him, I wanted to hear his voice. God... I don't know what to do, I thought little boys like attention, messages, etc... but now, I'm afraid, maybe we're not into a relationship as I thought. If i give all of myself I can get hurt... Maybe as a CG I'm failing? This is my first relationship. Such a painful and frustration feeling... So, I waited another time for call, but I asked him to wait for me 20min. "He falled asleep"... So then.... Yesterday I tried to talk with him by phone again (I proposed it of course, yes I insist too much...), he said something by voice Messenge saying -you're a selfish princess but I like you anyways- then, suddenly he just sent a record with just a silence after I asked for a phone call, I was upset "it was on propose?" So I asked what happened, he said his microphone is little broken and he can't talk. So, anyway after that I told him we will turn 1 month in few days... (I didn't know how will be his reaction so, I was not sure to tell or not.) He told me "I'm very happy♡ I'm looking forward for it♡♡." It was late at night in my country, i was free and it was Saturday (i know he has a live anyway but we never have time for us because school) but he just disappeared... now it's morning, there is no Messenge until I sent something now. I'm a little tired, I don't only need pretty words... I need him ask about my life, I want to try to be close to him by calls or video, not only text, do things togheter... he is my first bf and I don't know a lot of things... what I can say or do, what I'm allowed to say... I don't want be negative, but calls are important right? Or I'm overreacting? I need to calm my anxiety? Sorry for my English ;;
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