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[Theblackbrumby]

Hello all my fellow Littles!

 

This is a big step for me and I am looking for advice and a place to just be myself. I already have a Daddy that loves me unconditionally but I am stuck.

 

I have lost myself. I watch Disney movies, I sing along to Disney in the car but I don't know what age I am aiming for. I have lost myself big time. I had to do the whole adult thing for so long that I couldn't just relax. Due to certain things Daddy and I lost our connection of sorts.

 

I've been having more and more tantums, unexplained angry outbursts where I cannot for the life of me explain why.

 

I am simply lost. I think I have depression and whilst our kink life is ok in public it definitely isn't okay at home. We don't do dd/lg 24/7 but lately there has been non at all.

 

Sigh.

 

What do you guys do to make your Daddy's feel loved and make them want to spend time with you. I mean, get rid of his stress.

I get rejected for blow jobs so don't worry about the sexual side of stress relief just yet.

 

I love him dearly but my lack of motivation to clean the house and be excited for anything has really affected us.

 

Help. I just need an outlet. I feel so lonely as a litle cause there isn't very many in my area that I can really connect with.

 

Help me find myself?

[cuppycakes]

 I don't know what age I am aiming for.

Who cares what age you are? Just be yourself and do what makes you happy. Tons of littles don't have a "little age" they just do what they like. Most of the time I tend to act a little older, but I still suck my thumb and like bottles and stuffies. Eff the rules!

 

I think that you could do one of two things regarding littlespace.

1. put it aside and focus on yourself.

2. treat it as self-care and make it more prevalent in your daily life.

It depends on how stressful being a little is for you, I think. Sometimes when people can't get into littlespace or are struggling with the dynamic, it can be stressful. If it's stressful for you, don't worry about it and focus on yourself. If you think you're just stuck with the dynamic, I had a time where I was so busy and stressed out that I thought being little was a waste of time. "I could be doing other things right now but instead I'm acting like a toddler". I got a lot of advice to treat my littlespace like it was self-care, and set aside time for myself to be little. I did and now I feel much better about it.

 

Depression is a beast, and if you think you have it, please go seek medical attention. That means a doctor or a therapist.

[Nymph]

Ok honey, I am going to ask a bunch of questions and it's ok not to type the answers, but please do ask yourself all of this, it might help you make some sense out of it.

 

It's interesting that you are ok in public but not at home, it's usually the other way around... why is this? you don't have privacy at home? (living with roommates, relatives, children). Perhaps he needs more space than you realize? do you give him a chance to decompress after arriving from work? getting all hyper and clinging to his arm the rest of the day is cool but some people can't handle this every single day forever. You should have your own space too anyways.

 

How long have you guys been living together? perhaps you are still adapting? is he stressed at work? did you guys talk about the lifestyle and expectations for life together before you guys moved in? if you are into the lifestyle and he only likes to play in the bedroom this is most likely the problem.

 

You get rejected for blowjobs... has he never liked them? if so, why keep offering? not sure what you meant, any kind of rejection would concern me a bit, specially sexual but that is just me.

 

The anger and tantrums could be a big sign that your needs are not being met, the fact that you are not putting much effort in things you know your daddy appreciates might be not so much depression as your subconscious way of complaining that you are feeling neglected.

 

Most people here will tell you to talk it over with your daddy and they are absolutely right... but for some of us talking is not going to do the trick on his own, how do you feel when you get punished? you might need more structure and discipline.

 

PS. forget about your real and mental age, you have more important things to deal with!